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feddup feddup. this morning was supposed to have pe. but because of flagraising, i had to wear full school uniform.

and guess what? the bb boys were doing flagraising. -.-

so ironic.

what i just witness, made me think alot. i mean if he can change, i can change into a better person too right? admist all the temptations and distractions, i'm supposed to keep on the right track, but i dont see that happening. its falling apart, and i want to rebuilt it but it seems so abstract. so far away. i ask for help. but first i have to help myself. but if i can't how am i going to rebuilt it, before it falls to pieces. or maybe it already is. all i really want now, is for a real encounter to happen. something that can move me. i dont know how long i'll have to wait, and i dont know if i can wait that long. i have to get back to where i was before, but i dont know how.

its like im climbing a mountain, and i dont know which steps to climb. so i dont end up at the wrong place.
its really time for miracles. and i hope you hear me, even though i know, you know, exactly what's going on.

just gimme another chance.