i was not expecting it. at all.

woah, the things that sound too good to be true scares me sometimes. its like i've been waiting furiously for that day to arrive when i know its never gonna happen, not now, not next time, never gonna happen in a million years but suddenly, HEY! it did. right smack into my day when i least expect it and gives me a minor heart attack and then the wimp cant control her thoughts and her mind wanders off to some unkwon planet where her thoughts swim together in some huge giantic ocean that transforms into a whirlpool of emotions.

whirlpool of emotions. i should include this in my story.

damnit, it happens so many times i wonder why i'm not used to it.
maybe it just because my emotions get the better of me and im used to always imagining the worst case scenario in all kinds of situations. call me pessimistic or some sucker or a saddist but at least the disappointment would not be that great.

it sucks really. i wonder if you feel the same way as i do when you see it. but do you even see it? o.o

wonder
wander

their both pronounced the same way. even though they hold different meanings.
but really, they mean the same thing.
have you noticed? or maybe im the only one.

i miss you so much i might start crying.
but crying is unattractive.

so i shan't.