why you are not where i am at

i shall be very honest.

as much as i wanted to decieve myself into thinking that you would be having the time of your life miles away, its not possible for me to think that way. i couldn't. i wish i could say im supremely happy you're living your dream but i cant. i want you back so badly. or could you take me where you are at? i need to get out of this place so badly. i need to be where you are at so badly. i need to feel the soil of a foreign dream in my toes. i need you to remind me to continue writing. i need you to remind me to love the words in the dictionary. i need you to remind how to invent inspiration. i want you back. at times i think if i were given this one such opportunity i wouldnt blow it but distance is creating spaces and gaps in my lonely mind. i need some rememberence, a reminder, a sign, anything, to get me back to where i was previously at. i really really wished i didnt come back. i dont think i ever would. maybe i just need some assurance. maybe i just need to be where you are at.

i wonder if you could travel subconciously. your mind can leave your body and go to the place you always wanted to be. it could be anywhere anytime.

i need your reminder.