the time of the year

I shall do the annual new years eve blogpost. But instead of listing out the best/worst things of the year, I shall just talk about whatever I've been through this year.

So, in Jan, Cairo flew away to Aussie. I was kinda blue for awhile because I really didn't wanna be stuck in SG. Basically everything was so academically oriented its really annoying. I just wanted to do what I really want and enjoy while I'm able to and not spend my youth wasted behind the pile of books and constant mindset of 'doing well in school'. Having said that I really missed her too. So it was kinda hard emotionally too I guess?

There was also syf, where everyone wanted a gwh so desperately. And when we clinched it, you have no idea how relieved we were. So the year started off promising and then the seniors stepped down, leaving the sec3s to step up. And so we did, taking part in the syf closing ceremony did indeed bring us closer. But come November, the passing of Mrs Yeap... It kinda felt really different. Like, really empty and lost? After all it was my first wake I attended, perhaps it was just all too new. But I shall talk about this later.

Being the oic of invest was a huge responsibility too, so many times I wanted to give up. It's just so hard continuing when you see everything you worked so hard for suddenly going off course and when your plans are drastically changed at the last minute its really hard to keep strong and keep going. It was draining yknow? Invest may seem easy but trust me, its not. There's so many aspects to look after and when you don't have much support and affirmation, you just feel really lost. But I'm glad I managed to pull it off. And I can never thank my fellow oic enough for all the trust she had in me and all the help she given me. So yeah.

The best thing that happened this year? Prolly the Taiwan trip. The worst? Well I guess there are a few but really I only have myself to blame. Perhaps after a long period of time, I've gotten used to it, so much so it doesn't bother me as much. Maybe it'll all be better this way. If I just left it there. Last year was a terrible year. Probably the worst ever. This year would be golden if I compared it to last year. Come to think of it, I'm really glad I survived last year. I know for many ppl 2011 was a horrid year but trust me, once you go through 'the worst year ever' the rest of the years will be better. #TrueStory HAHA to be honest I still think about last year sometimes and I wonder if perhaps if I did things differently, things would've be as bad but really, I would have done the same thing over again. Looks like whatever that happened was meant to be. Ohwell 2010 changed me. Drastically. But 2011 kinda more or less kept me the same? HAHA well I did attend my first concert this year (PARAMORE) and I won tickets for that and it was also the first time I went on radio hehe so yeah even though nothing sad/bad/emotionally draining happened this year, nevertheless I've learnt a lot. It was really eventful. Okaye I can't think of the best songs of 2011 but I'll think about it and I'll get back to you alright.

It's my senior year when school starts. I can totally relate to Rachel and Kurt and of course Finn. Like Finn, I haven't decided what I truly want. Of course I'll go along with my interests but what if I'm not good enough like how Finn didn't get his scholarship? And also, I want to leave smth behind, but there's no musical to take part in like how Rachel did. Perhaps if you count Melizo but there aren't any leads in Melizo. Yeah I've done invest, but still. I guess I'm just like Kurt. I wanna achieve smth and perhaps it'll look stunning in my resume and maybe that'll get me into some awesome institute. But Kurt has nothing (other than being a congressmen's son).

Having said that, I look forward to 2012 and the only thing I'll wish for is for COLDPLAY TO COME TO SINGAPORE AND ME GETTING AN AWESOME TICKET TO THEIR CONCERT WITH MY FELLOW COLDPLAYERS I'm serious that's all I'll ever ask for next year heh #fangirl the rest of the other things, are up to me. I decide if I want 2012 to be a good year or a bad one. I don't believe in fate, its bull really. I commit my life into my own hands and God too of course. I'm thankful for so many things too. I think SG should have a thanksgiving day because ppl tend to focus on whatever they don't have and neglect whatever they have. They need to be reminded to be thankful. So I thank God for 2011 and come what may huh 2012!

HAHA have a wonderful/legendary/supermegafoxyawesomehot/winning New Year's Day and 2012! Always rmb to be thankful and that fate lies in your hands. I wish you all, all the best and the best of health and God bless.

Love, Kristie.

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