now or never

Apologies for the cliched title but ohwell. Sudden realisation dawned upon my clueless mind that Melizo is IN 8 MORE DAYS. My last choir performance, in 8 more days and I am nowhere near prepared/ready for it. God bless me. Aww shoot I'm starting to get all nostalgic and sappy. I'll miss choir so much. Especially my choir clique. And all the tough times choir been through tgt. We've gained, we've lost, both successfully and relationship based. And that ties us tgt because we know what one another has been through, we understand and we all have the same goal. That is to make our last performance a legen-wait for it.............. DARY performance!! I mean who wouldn't want that?! CAMP COMMENCES TMR well gonna put in all the effort over the next 3 days and I swear if any sec 1 thinks I'm sec2/3 YOU'RE GOING DOWNZXC. Meh try me k. Haha I'm sorry, the 'cool senior' facade is too attractive for me to give up. Anyhoo, now that its all said and done, I sincerely hope that everything is alright for everyone now. In fact I believe that it is. Even if its not, well I am just going to bask in my glorious oblivion and self denial/assurance. Selfish of myself but I'm at a point where I think I deserve this right, especially after the turmoil I've been through these few years. There's a song called 'You could be happy' by Snow Patrol and it got me thinking.. do you want to accept happiness? Issit a personal acceptance/perception or what fate does to your twisted life? I think yes, events do bring joy. But even if the most wonderful of events happen to you, it really is your choice if you want to accept and be happy. Perhaps we're all used to being sad, isn't that what we're best at? Perhaps after feeling sad for so long, it becomes normal for us to feel sad. But honestly, do we deserve this sadness? You can't deny, you think you deserve to be happy. I mean everyone wants to be happy, deep down inside. Yes sorrow is familiar and comforting but joy, it illuminates the gray areas of our tragic lives, altering the way we embrace life. Do I sound creepy? Okaye I do but heck, being happy really is a personal choice. You can choose to live in familiarity and perceive life in sadness or we can choose to take better care of our beaten defeated souls and let a little joy in. You could be happy, we all deserve to be happy, don't we?

Sorry for that outburst. Result of overthinking. With the weather chilling our spines, you might think winter will come to Singapore after all.

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