siphoned every morsel of my soul

never felt so drained. I just managed to squeeze out 5 poems in a week and honestly I don't even know why I'm doing this not like I would gain anything out from it (but maybe just maybe) I WANT 4K PLZ THANK YOU and i need smth that would look good on my resume pls just take me im so tired of everyth. such a eventful week sigh i dont know why im feeling this way its so annoying i wish i was a cold heartless human with the only goal of making sure gasoline rainbows are appreciated oh yeah i need to tweak some things but then again i wont know the result hahaha screw it la why did i even join the competition im so tired and im feeling like a hundred different ppl folded into one and i really need a sustainable healthy distraction i dont feel like sleeping i have to wake up at 6 tmr its only a few more hours i'd rather read and be shallow in my sad sallows hey there's alliteration there for you god im so pretentious LOL POEMS DON'T EVEN NEED TO MAKE SENSE DAMNIT IM SAD AND LIFE SUCKS