simultaneously unravelling and self-destructing

it is only Day 3 of Year 2 and i feel like its gonna be a long, horrid, torturous 7 weeks to the June hols. last sem i had recurring feelings of dread and 'drowning in air' and feeling miserable all of a sudden during lectures and when going home which is strange since everyday i looked forward to the end of the school day and funny thing was while reaching the end of the sem i felt this insane motivation and i did not even experience said symptoms even though there was a whole avalanche of things due but i knew that the sem was ending lol but this sem alr feels like hell but ok i will aim to look on the brightside of things.... graduating in about a year's time!!!!!!! yay!!!!! (lol who am i kidding i still have 2 more years)

1) using this temp mac and i deduced with my sherlock set of skills that it had at least 3 previous owners

• a girl from TP
• a malay guy
• a guy from SMU Business (more specifically from Accountancy)

and one of which is a massive kpop fan lol i feel so unsafe with all my info kept on this 'shared secret' but anyway the malay guy and guy from SMU Business might actually be the same person but yes malay guy left his insta acc logged in AND I HAVE ACCESS TO IT HAAHHA preethika took the opportunity and liked the guy's old pictures and commented a string of malay words on his own pics too i wonder if he notices??? and my cramps feel like a rock has been lodged right in my uterus i think its making up for the previous time when it did not hurt at all the Universe is too selfish, it will always win