all in

ooh.
apathy is aiding me in my plight.
at least i feel better now.
:)

gogogo eoy baby

apathy

apathy is getting the better of me.
i need to keep up with the good work haha.
good job kris, good job.

:(

i need to stop thinking la.
this is so annoying.
i cant control my mind from running to alternate realities with the words "what if" etched all over my heart.
darn.

ahhh. i should just stop.

and why you give me the shy face? haha

What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

Oooh that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh let's try
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh that's right

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide

That you don't want me there in your life

That you don't want me there by your side

Oooh that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh let's try
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh that's right

Oooh thats right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh let's try
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh that's right

fever

i dont want to talk to you.

who knows you might be hiding your true intentions under a cloak of deception.
its a game you play so well,
i might get killed if im not careful.

ahh sian, why he not online. :(

change.

i have changed.
no more smiles.
no more laughter.
no more just being so high just thinking about ryantedder.

2010 sucks.

i have become more mellow.
where's the kristie that would go around screaming like a crazy ------

ahh.
wadev.
when i grow up.
i want to be a travelling musician.
even though i bet in two weeks time i'll change occupations haha.

aish.
look at how things were in the past.

what a week

this week passed like in slow motion.

monday we had our class photo, i guess we all look beautiful. :)
tuesday, i cant really rmb what went on,
wednesday, was some incident that sent the class to two sides. like team WE DIDNT CHEAT and team YES YOU DID.
but it was resolved.

ky told me about kongmingdengs. i asked lao shi what's the purpose of kongmingdengs. she said something about prayers or wishes. whoo. someday, im gonna create the world's biggest kongmingdeng. and then it shall travel around the world. so cool.

thursday, i played until my fingers turned black. wow.

friday, i decided that i was doing a good job in pushing the whole train of thoughts outta my head.

hmm. so i've been thinking.
1) if i knew how much you were going to change,
i would have gladly gone in your place.

2) and, yeah, wadev, gotta stopstopstop. ahhhhhh. she's so important to you, too bad im not.

3) aish, im unsure now. lets wait and see. my evil plan shall be postponed till end of eoys. but its making me sad. :( just thinking about it.

4) i wanna be like guocongmin when i grow up.

5) wads up with parenting books.

okay. i should focus.
okay.
bye.

yeah. im hoping i wont regret.
when i know i will.

HI MISS KATY~~~

im not listening when you say goodbye

I'm packed and I'm holding,
I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden and
she lives for me, She says she lives for me,
Ovation, She's got her own motivation,
she comes round and she goes down on me,
And I make her smile, It's like a drug for you,
Do ever what you want to do,
Coming over you,
Keep on smiling,
what we go through.
One stop to the rhythm that divides you,
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse,
Chop another line like a coda with a curse,
And I come on like a freak show takes the stage.
We give them the games we play, she said,
I want something else, to get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, Good-bye.

The sky it was gold, it was rose,
I was taking sips of it through my nose,
And I wish I could get back there,
Some place back there,
Smiling in the pictures you would take,
Doing crystal myth,
Will lift you up until you break,
It won't stop,
I won't come down, I keep stock,
With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop,
And then I bumped up. I took the hit I was given,
Then I bumped again,
And then I bumped again.
How do I get back there to,
The place where I fell asleep inside you?
How do I get myself back to,
The place where you said,
I want something else to get me through this,
semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say, good-bye,

I believe in the sand beneath my toes,
The beach gives a feeling,
An earthy feeling,
I believe in the faith that grows,
And the four right chords can make me cry,
When I'm with you I feel like I could die.
And that would be all right,
All right, When the plane came in,
She said she was crashing,
The velvet it rips,
In the city we tripped,
On the urge to feel alive,
But now I'm struggling to survive,
The days you were wearing,
That velvet dress,
You're the priestess,
must confess,
Those little red panties,
They pass the test,
Slide up around the belly,
Face down on the mattress,
One,
Now you hold me,
And we're broken.
Still it's all that I want to do.
Feel myself with a head made of the ground,
I'm scared but I'm not coming down.
And I won't run for my life,
She's got her jaws just locked now in smile
but nothing is all right,
All right, I want something else,
To get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say,
good-bye.




ahhhhhh.
:(

hey,

i really wish you were the person i once knew.
where did i go wrong,
i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up
with you all night
i had i known
how to save a life.

please.


and missing person,
i still dont know my importance to you.
i dont seem to be remembered by you.
im just not good enough.

and finally -
it kills me just to know that.

and you.
thank you.
:)
thanks for talking to me.
you're always the one to pick me up from my crushed illusions.

what more could i ask for?

the scientist

doesn't believe.

i hate to say this, but, i gotta stop harping on this.

our friendship is in ruins.

phew.

so, today was the 14th.
super nervous.
woah.
first piece had some slips.
second piece too.
third piece much better.

whew.

scales.
aural.
sightreading.

i think i may be okay. yeah hopefully.

okay.

thanks. :)
and.
i chopped my hair.
haha

GOGOGO!!!

FINALLY!
the day is finally arriving,
i can do this!
gogogo.
stay calm,
throw away
anxiety,
uncertainty.

GOGOGO!!!

:)

YOU CAN DO IT.

"so be sure when you step
step with care and great tact
and remember that life's
a great balancing act
and will you succeed
yes! you will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed)
KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS."

aderic tagged me lol

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: water. its healthy.

2. Last phone call: huixin, but she got kidnapped by some random person.

3. Last text message: pj

4. Last song you listened to: just a dream by nelly. :( i feel your pain

5. Last time you cried: hmm. i think. it was on monday...? like a few weeks ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone: oooooooh

7. Been cheated on: oooooooh la la

8. Kissed someone: la di da

9. Lost someone special: hmm.

10. Been depressed: since june, lol.

11. Been drunk and threw up: i hold my liquor well haha.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black. wait. its a neutral, LOL. hmm, in that case. blue..?

13. hmm. gay colours. :)

14. even gayer colours.

THIS YEAR: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yeah

16. Fallen out of love: shhhhhh

17. Laughed until you cried: all the time, LOL.

18. Met someone who changed you: whoo

19. Found out who your true friends were: uh-huh

20. Found out someone was talking about you: -nodshead-

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: secret. :)

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: none. HAHA.

23. What did you item spoilt? everything meant for me.

24. Do you have any pets: nope, unless you count tim's hamster.

25. Do you want to change your name: why would i?

26. What did you do for your last birthday: hmm. things. uhh. ooh, japanese restaurant. then, i cant rmb, whoops.

27. What time did you wake up today: i dont look at the clock when i wake up

28. What were you doing at midnight: dreaming of !!! AGAIN, OMG LIKE EVERY NIGHT WTH!!!

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: aussie!!!

30. Last time you saw your Mother: just nowzxc

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: hmm. live somewhere else.

32. What are you listening to right now: choices by hoosiers, damn awesomeeeee

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: maybe..?

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: slow lagging zzz.

35. Most visited webpage: facebook, youtube.

What’s your real name: secret. haha

37. Nicknames: kryyystee, kris, banana.

38. Relationship Status: married, haha

39. Zodiac sign: fishy

40. Male or female:bi. LOL

41. Primary school: rosyth

42. Secondary school: Xinmin

43. High school/college/university: im still too young, LOL

44. Hair color: damn brown

45. long or short: damn long

46. Height: secret

47. Do you have a crush on someone: oooooooh i dont believe in crushes.

48: What do you like about yourself:everything haah

49. Piercings:i scared

51. Righty or lefty: you can guess

52. First surgery: hmm. braces counted?

53. First piercing: nooooo

54. First best friend: giogi phang and gordon chua

55. First sport you joined: is violin considerd as sports? HAHA

56. First vacation: batam?

58. First pair of trainers:i dont wear those

59. Food: food? wad food? LOL

60. Drinks: blur alr.

61. I'm about to: hatch an evil plan. muahaha

62. Listening to: choices HAHA

63. Waiting on: oooh haha, oooooh, shhh

64. How many children do you want: 1000000

65. Get Married: hmm. 25?

66. Career: writer, musician

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: sparkling diamonds

68. Hugs or kisses: pedo hugs

69. Shorter or taller: sensitive question!!!

70. Older or younger? anyth la.

71. Romantic or spontaneous: idk

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: this is getting.... weird

73. Sensitive or loud:WO BU ZHI DAO

74. Hook-up or relationship: none

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: LA DI DA

77. Drank hard liquor: maybe

78. Lost glasses/contacts: noooo

79. Sex on first date: what the.

80. Broken someone's heart: oooooh

82. Been arrested: no la. -___-

83. Turned someone down: yeah

84. Cried when someone died: yeash

85. Fallen for a friend: oooooooh

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: sometimes

87. Miracles: maybe

88. Love at first sight: no. -___- thats retarded.

89. Heaven: yeahhhh

90. Santa Claus:YES HAHAHAHAHA

91. Kiss on the first date: what.

92. Angels: yeahhh

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

no hah

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: ooooooooh, lemme count first HAHA.

95. Did you sing today: YOU WANNA HEAR? :)

96. Ever cheated on somebody: whooo, nope

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: hmm. december 2009

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it?:obviously. LIFE WAS GREAT THEN

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: oooooh

I LIED IN EVERY ONE HAHA,

no la.

kidding.

lol,

con.tempt.plat.ting

hmm,

eh why font so weird.

okay. i was typing on the "edit html" page instead. LOL.
pull strings.

pulling strings.

pulled strings.

hmm.

more not than often, you surprise me with your abrupt farewells.
i am sure, you were not expecting mine.

hmm. maybe i'll tell you.
soon.

see first la.
how things go.

hmm.
ever since you met her, your whole attitude seemed to change.
no more going home tgt, or smsing till late at night.
no more sharing secrets, all that shiz.

you even shoved that finger in my face.
wth.

two face hypocrite.
im just hoping, you'll fix your own life.
just in time for eoys.

hmm.

you seem to be a complete total different person now.
shiz.

ooh, i created a new word. shiz. LOL.

hmm.
im trying my best.
but i always get tensed up whenever we're playing an accompainment.
sorry. :(

ahhhhhhh.

breathe in.
breathe out.

relax.

okay.

okay.

okay.

i hope, things will improve, with time, everything will heal yeah! :)

that was random.

hmm.

aiya, i think i will tell her soon la.
okay.
okay.
okay.

my self help book is quite effective.

okay.
bye.

tallywhacker

whoo haha,
this week was okay i guess.

muchmuchmuch better than the rest of term 3.
mainly cuz there were only 3 days of school.
and its the last week of school.

and because.
I SEE PROGRESSION.
lol!

but seriously, got progress leh!!! HAHA.

im listening to happier tunes now, the self help book is helping.
i like. :)

its time to work my beep off,
for violin and eoys.

whoo.
stay focused.

practice.

daily.

be proactive.
begin with the end in mind.

okay, im happy-er.
whoooooo. :)