and all at once

the past month or so has been a period of transition, the moment blooms and swells and can be overwhelming at times, but u gotta tell urself, despite it all, u are still u.

i've been reading essays in love by alain de botton and listening to polyvinyl artists and watching the last season of arrested development and everything is so warm and comforting and that is about to end soon and make room for some new concrete things about to happen

and im not going to kid myself im terrified, terrified that i cant find my small circle/pond to wade around comfortably, terrified of having no time and having too much time at the same time. but this is just me mopping around with my head in shambles, i worry too much, too little, not at all, heart misaligned with head but i think i will be ok, in fact i think we will be ok, pals around the world and pals in singapore and pals in my heart, but for now i'll just read my book (actually pdf cuz i aint no cash for the real thing!!) listen to my songs and watch my show.

is all, that is all.