For as long as I have music

I can't decide what I'm feeling now. Nostalgic/blue/lost.. and ache? Today was our last choir practice and standing at my usual spot, listening to Ee Xuan's distinct voice, feeling David's and Kaely's laughter on my spine, after all this while, its been so familiar and comforting. I'll miss choir so much. The goosebumps I get when we sound really, really good, Mr Yong's untelling expression whenever he's mad at us (you can't decide if he's really angry cuz he looks happy when he's raging), Delvin's silly/cute actions. Sigh. To be honest, I can hardly rmb Year 1 in choir, but that was when choir practices were strict and everyone was so discipline. I barely knew anyone then. But I rmb how WeiShan and Fongxin conducted sectionals in the storeroom and how altos always got scolded. And of course the Europe Trip. Truly unforgettable. I miss Cairo so much and Sarah too. Sigh. Crashing one another's rooms, having midnight parties (so hardcore!) Shopping in supermarts, singing in the Christmas markets, eating icecream in the rain, getting drunk on Chinese tea.... It really was wonderful. And in year 2, Kaleidoscope! Wow collaborating with the other performing groups was really fun, there's not much I can recall though. But I do know Ms Quek was my favourite teacher. And in year 3, SYF! it was so agonizing when I couldn't make it through the first round of auditions because I was 'careless'. And each time I tried and failed I just got even more demoralized. I wanted so badly to be in the SYF team. And when I finally got in, I was so so so relieved. I really gave everything I had for SYF. Honestly it was a Do or Die thing for me. Standing on SOTA's stage for the first time, on wooden pieces the same shade as our choir room...nervous huh. And when we got Gold with Honours, all the effort, all worthed it. And then the closing ceremony at UCC. Experienced the hectic life of a performer.... BEST THING EVER. And then Mrs yeap's passing..  sigh we all need to leave sooner or later don't we? I guess I'm glad we ended off with Melizo. Truly amazing cca and family. I'll miss you guys so much.