'But I gots to know!'

Always feeling so energized after church! Today was Women's Blessings Day, good food yum yum. Hm I should practise with Danny more, I'm getting rusty. Some ppl in church are really talented. I'm starting to sense that it runs in the family. Perhaps. I'm getting more stoked for Church Camp! YAY! What is 'Cough Syrup'? Why does Josiah like it so much? And why are B&J denying everyth when its alr so obvious? (Yes belicia I'm refering to you). These are the questions I think about concurrently while I'm speaking. Happens all the time though, its as if my mind can think of two (or more) separate unrelated thoughts even as I am speaking. I'm so cool HAHAHA
Anyhoo, I'm conceiving an indestructible plan in my mind, I alr have all the necessary 'ingredients' nyeh heh but then again it would be extremely weird to carry out w/o feeling self-concious and then again, how 'good' is 'good'? Its gonna take ages, definitely, but. But. This plan will be too formidable to be thwarted. Unless it crumbles in my mind.........so come what may!
My choices are as follows:
Betty. Somehow the more I listen to 'Betty', the more I realise its almost the perfect description of myself. How true.
High and Dry.
I haven't heard it in detail yet. But how could you ever go wrong with Radiohead?
Payphone. Pls don't stone me to death but a little mainstream would be nice. Just a little.
New York/This Isn't Everything You Are
Then again the lyrics are so heartbreaking.
Here Comes Your Man.
Well no one knows that song. BUT IT'S SO ADORABLE!!!!!
Video Games/Daughters.......perhaps. But that can wait of course, in the meantime, I'll keep my eyes wide opened. Having high hopes for this, may it be a success. Hard I know, but no harm trying. Gots to deal with myes for now! Where is my life heading? Guess I'm just floating around, no absolution in my empty words. I kinda understand how Finn feels (even if I haven't watched Glee for ages), I guess he needs smth constant and unwavering even as his life proceeds on w/o him, so he does smth rash by proposing to Rachel. High school hero, life zero. Hm. I sometimes wonder where I would see myself 20 years from now. I'll be 36.. okaye too far, 10 years from now, I'll be 26 and hopefully, hopefully I could be somewhere far away from SG. Not that I hate SG but I need smth new and different. I really envy all those kids going overseas to study. Sigh. Recently I read Cairo's stories and that put me pretty much to shame. I guess I wasn't as good as I thought I was at my craft. I wish I was a better writer though. Not good enough, not good enough.
OH YES HAVE I MENTIONED that day I was flipping through the papers and I saw the headline 'The Killers rocker shoots himself' I SWEAR I ALMOST DIED I FELT MY COLD, COLD HEART JUST STOP LIKE THAT. turns out none of them died, but rather, someone in their supporting band. R.I.P. Tommy. You made great contribution to The Killers. I'm kinda praying really really hard Coldplay doesn't come to SG because I wouldn't miss a concert with my life and I wouldn't be able to go so, (I can't believe I'm saying this) but pls pls pls don't come to SG this year Coldplay.
OKAYE IMMA ATTEMPT A SUPERMEGAFOXYAWESOMEHOT THING NOW HAHA WATCH ME SUCCEED (prolly not gonna happen)