my thoughts and feelings towards graduation

It's a lame title, I know, I know. Hm so in 2 days I will bid farewell to my home of 4 years in a way I grew up (maybe not physically eek) but yeah these 4 years have been good. I met life long friends (i just know they are)  and other ppl and I've learn one or 2 things from them I guess we all grew up tgt huh. But funny thing is I don't feel much about graduating. I don't feel nostalgic or emotional or sad or anyth perhaps I've grown a little apathetic towards this no no its the culture, I've grown extremely tired and sick of my school's culture. After 4 years of the same environment, I am starving for a change so honestly I'm pretty happy to be graduating. It's bittersweet I guess, but more of sweet gosh so done with school mann. But I must say xms really gave me a lot of memories. From 2 overseas trips to planning a few events to winning a few awards to meeting my best friends....... Xms has treated me well and I am thankful but but but I need a change toss me into the oceans of change pls thank you. Maybe I'll be more emotional after Tuesday LOL
On a completely unrelated note, I went to gardens by the freaking bay ytd cuz Tim is a free bird now and its so crowded its like they transported the entire crowd from the mrts to the gardens. It's a pretty cool place, literally with 2 air conditioned domes, one of which is called the Cloud Forest cuz they are trying to recreate a high altitude natural environment with this 35m tall waterfall/hill with mist jets everywhere cool stuff. (again, literally) but it was so darn crowded you couldn't take your time to view all the pretty flowers cuz you'll be a hazard yes a hazard. Come to think of it its quite amazing how they arranged the plants/flowers considering that the whole place was huge and they had to arrange it in a way that was aesthetically appealing. Anyway we had to walk on the metal railings along the mountain so its like you're midair haha and since the mountain is essentially a building there were exhibits inside too, idk why it reminded me of the earthquake centre in Taiwan hm. We went to the flower dome afterwards after dinner and its was alr like 8plus and it was super dark so we couldn't really see the flowers but prefer this over the other one there was this section with giant cactuses and baobao trees plus the dim light its the perfect setting for a Halloween scare house. There were plenty of 'pls do not touch' signs and Tim and I took a few photos with our hands on the sign I'm succha badass LOL
Honestly I'm not sure if I wanna go back there cuz I'm no garden enthusiast but its a novel idea though.
I guess I'll enjoy my last 2 days of school before I don't have a chance and and. I'm quite upset/angry/disappointed but maybe I should've expected it. Whatever, I can't say I didn't try cuz I did. Maybe it just wasn't right. I can think of a whole universe of reasons why. No wait, I can't. I really can't.

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