This is the story of how I met your father PART 1

Okaye I decided why not??? Kids, here's the story of how I met your father. My earliest memory of ever liking someone was when I was 5 and at that time I understood the whole concept of 'love' through television and of course my understanding was completely warped and lame. I was 5 you can't expect much from my tiny brain and tiny heart. Anyway the first boy I liked was this kid in my class in Kindergarten and he had tiny eyes and sported a crew cut and he was tan and that's all I rmb of him I wasn't even sure why I liked him I just did but like my fickle distracted mind back then, my 'feelings' vaporised. When you're a kid most of the time you have no idea what's going on and sometimes I get random jolts of memories but honestly I cannot tell if I dreamt it up or if they actually occurred so then again maybe this 5 year old boy never existed. Okaye I'll start on smth more substantial (this is very real btw) I was 9 and I went to school everyday with this boy on the same school bus (he lived nearby) and he had tiny eyes too but his features were very delicate and I found him to be very dashing. Then I was really awkward with puberty and all that growing (yes I grew) I had short hair (mushroom head) and was far from being attractive (even now I still am LOL SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE HAHAHAHA) ANYHOO I was really uncomfortable in my own skin but I was very sure that I liked him and even though I knew he would never feel the same I continued. Back then I was in this clique with 3 other girls and we were all young and silly and naive and we all confided in one another about our crushes AND FOR SOME REASON THE THREE OF THEM JUST DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAW IN THE BOY I LIKED. Like alright he was a little childish (but who isn't when they're 9?!) CMON and they didn't think he was charming like I did but it was a crush. So there's that. I rmb this instance when we were in the bus and I needed a dictionary for English and he offered to lend me his BUT I STUPIDLY SAID NO OMG hahaha I was so shy I hid behind a whole facade that I was smarter than him but honestly I was very smitten its so funny and stupid LOL When I was 10 to 12 I didn't have crushes at all maybe cuz I hung out with only Giogi and Gordy and Jeremy and his gang and the only girl friends I had were Giogi and maybe 4-5 other girls but we were't very close (I was only close to George) and I didn't have feelings for them so yeah THAT WAS MY LIFE my secondary school was more complicated and tragic I wince when I think about it but I shall continue sometime later. Anyway the funny thing is George is really close to my P3 crush now LOL AT MY LYF