inconsequential irony
Had a crazy week and its only wed! But its good since HELL WEEK IS OVER HELLS YEAH. Finally have time to rest/read/exercise
1)monday
had last s&w lesson, (finally climbed to the top of the 9m wall), locpro written test and I drew a badly constructed polar pattern thingy which heng han smirked at before remarking 'fail, fail alr!' spent the last 30mins before 5pm in a whirl school's printers really suck, spent the evening, (and night) at woodlands before heading home
2)tuesday
was a complete daze
3)wednesday (today)
had our first presentation for webgra which went pretty alright, so glad its over 5eva
Sometimes I think I write well, but most times I feel inconsequential. George shed some light on her life in school and I realised that our superficial society is smth we cannot run from, be it within the elite, or just a regular, it is very apparent and blatant. I wouldn't say elitism is wrong, but things get a little more forced/fake? Reading works, or rather just musings from other ppl around my age impresses and intimidates me. On one hand I admire their effortless way with words, on the other I am jealous I do not possess that quality. It comes and go and oftentimes I doubt my abilities. I wonder if definitions and labels I smack on myself are bad, if I do not identify with my identity, then what am I? Want very much to publish what I wrote recently over here but I'll have to wait till Nov to do so, until then, I will try to churn out more. Does it even require effort? It takes more than time for me to be pleased with what my mind can come up with. I long for fluidity, for flexibility and some sort of style I can call my own. Inconsistent has been my most regarded take away and I am forever chasing inspiration. Right now my thoughts are very scattered, I am glad I am not academically inclined and thrown into such an elite society firstly, studying is woe secondly, I do not care what they think and yet it is extremely hard to be a non-comformist and why do they even try so hard? Found out recently that I am an INFP (far from a perfectionist however) and that George was one too and it makes sense since we're besties I wonder what Gordy is though.
Haven't spoken to Sistaa for about a week, miss him very much, I hope he's not too busy with work.
Also, you are beyond adorable.
2)tuesday
was a complete daze
3)wednesday (today)
had our first presentation for webgra which went pretty alright, so glad its over 5eva
Sometimes I think I write well, but most times I feel inconsequential. George shed some light on her life in school and I realised that our superficial society is smth we cannot run from, be it within the elite, or just a regular, it is very apparent and blatant. I wouldn't say elitism is wrong, but things get a little more forced/fake? Reading works, or rather just musings from other ppl around my age impresses and intimidates me. On one hand I admire their effortless way with words, on the other I am jealous I do not possess that quality. It comes and go and oftentimes I doubt my abilities. I wonder if definitions and labels I smack on myself are bad, if I do not identify with my identity, then what am I? Want very much to publish what I wrote recently over here but I'll have to wait till Nov to do so, until then, I will try to churn out more. Does it even require effort? It takes more than time for me to be pleased with what my mind can come up with. I long for fluidity, for flexibility and some sort of style I can call my own. Inconsistent has been my most regarded take away and I am forever chasing inspiration. Right now my thoughts are very scattered, I am glad I am not academically inclined and thrown into such an elite society firstly, studying is woe secondly, I do not care what they think and yet it is extremely hard to be a non-comformist and why do they even try so hard? Found out recently that I am an INFP (far from a perfectionist however) and that George was one too and it makes sense since we're besties I wonder what Gordy is though.
Haven't spoken to Sistaa for about a week, miss him very much, I hope he's not too busy with work.
Also, you are beyond adorable.
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