quietus

1) One of my favourite things to do is to go to supermarkets esp on the weekends and get as much free samples as possible HAHA judge me not but wow when there's free food you don't question it you just accept it and be grateful LOL

2) anyway Kok is in Korea now I really miss him :'( for reasons unknown I alway miss ppl more when they're miles away oceans apart when our timezones do not match :'( and LRR is leaving soon :'( I can't wait until I leave this place my bones are aching for liberation

3) today LRR showed me this guy's poems and works which he wrote when he was 17 and i want to cut off his hands and attach them to mine and do some AHS shiz so that I NOW HAVE HIS HANDS AND I CAN CRAFT POETRY THAT SENDS SHIVERS DOWN MY OWN SPINE DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT I AM SO ENVIOUS WHAT THE WHAT THE HELL HOW CAN ANYONE WRITE THAT BRILLIANTLY I AM SO UPSET cause of death: poetry that makes me feel like a lesser being  i am so frustrated >:( but good for him you totally deserve it.

4) Submission week is over!!!!! but there's even more work waiting for me to complete x_x how is this sem considered lepak?? i do not understand and i fail to see how this sem is enjoyable. I'm just waiting for week 9/10 to arrive and at least i can have a breather i can now fully appreciate christmas. I'm always so hyped up about christmas but i really want snow LIKE I DONT NEED ANY GIFTS OR WHATEVS I JUST WANT SNOW OK THAT WOULD BE LIKE THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER.

5) sigh i wonder if i'll ever get to where i was supposed to be all these feelings are so unnecessary.