as a child of 25

when I was 12/13 I always thought that by the time I get to 18 I would have my lyf tgt and by that I meant be an almost adult have little or minimal freak outs and be very wise as I turn 18 in about 2 days, I realise I am still a child and I think I alway be there are so many things I cannot handle but then again up to this point of my life, I have handled a wide array of situations well (or so I like to think) so every day I am still learning and hopefully one day I feel some semblance of what's it like to be an adult but then again being an adult is a myth I bet Obama feels like a kid sometimes too wow so much in common eh 

I don't hate bdays, I kinda dread it. Don't get me wrong, I love celebrating bdays but ever since I turned 16 the novelty of bdays just kinda wore off and the thing I hate the most about bdays is that cuz it is 'your day' you feel all sorts of self entitlement, and you subconsciously expect ppl to do nice things to/for you, you expect ppl you've haven't spoken to in awhile to wish you happy bday, you expect all sorts of things from your family, your best mates etc etc but the thing is they are NOT obligated to do anyth at all and once you have all these subconscious expectations you will naturally get disappointed when you don't get what you want and this is hella pointless cuz, reinforcing my aforementioned point, ppl are NOT obligated to do anyth for your bday and it sucks cuz you can't help but expect stuff it just reminds you of what an ungrateful being you are and also I am getting older tbh I feel borderline depressed on my bdays I don't even know why today has been a very long day of me feeling all sorts of emotions I blame himym