this is way harder than it is and i feel so left out and lonely and no one even understands that there are other issues/problems outside of A's and because there is A's every other issue/problem becomes invalid and i don't even know what's going on in their lives anymore and they don't bother asking and because everyone is so fucking busy and i want to be supportive and encouraging but keeping up with 6 different paces/schedules alone is not as easy as it seems as everyone says they have no time and yet they still have the time to go out, well then 

maybe im self absorbed maybe I'm needy maybe I'm selfish maybe i just need to suck it up