I'm always talking about having smth worth bleeding for and how I don't have any... But I think I do. I want to write, if I can't be away I'll write then. I've been so focused on what I do not have I completely overlook what I possess. It doesn't matter if I don't have 'earth-shatteringly heartbreaking' 'things' happening to me.. Just because I experience less or feel less, am I making lesser out of life? The phrasing is completely off but am I making lesser out of life? I hope not. Am I too greedy to want so much out of life that I demand horrible or incredible, just so I can feel like I'm 'living'?! It's pretty ridiculous now that I think of it. Here I sit, idle in the middle. It's not a bad spot, I am still feeling, feeling so much and nothing at the same time. Here I am still learning and growing, maybe not exponentially, but I still am. I am a very impatient person, but I'll wait for things I cannot chase. I do not give up , for things that can be chased, I'll peruse relentlessly.