its a terrible love and im walking with spiders

dad brought me to USS to catch ARGBEL last night at the amphitheatre. was a pretty great night im getting used to applying 'don't think just do' to almost every situation in lyf. i.e hoping onto rides w/o actually knowing what terrors are coming my way 

was seated beside this guy, (attempted to have small talk, promptly turned down and denied) so i held my tongue throughout the entire ride (wanted to scream but at the same time didnt wanna look like a pussy) SO I HELD IT IN DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT WAS NOT TO SCREAM!!!! (thats what she said ahahahahahahha) was an exciting match, recently my predictions are becoming more accurate, reached home about 3 and i am currently trying to peer pressure shaun to watch the finals with me i will soon succeed im sure. 

also today was going pretty well until the universe had to destroy me in the most frustrating ~*tears of grief and anguish*~ manner ever i want to die i really want to die my lyf is a joke. i am actually a joke. what the frICK what is the universe trying to tell me??!??! are you taunting me?!?!??!/1 i am alr a loser and i have nth SO WHAT THE FRICK i am learning to NOT conjure up meanings and attach them to coincidences/mere occurrences, but this is ridiculous, i am ridiculous and i want to die.