ahi tuna

ever since returning from Cambodia, i have been obsessed with Masterchef i think its my coping mechanism LOL tbh idk whats up with me recently, i get so tired when im out and all i want to do is go home but i also dont want to be at home....... anyway back to Masterchef, i am so so amazed by their talent??!?! it makes me really want to learn how to cook for the sake of my domestic future LOL i am literally the least domestic person at home and i want to change that HAHA very impressed by them my faves are Luca and Leslie, and i frickin love Luca!!!! legit i think hes my inspiration, he is so funny and caring and passionate and charming i want to live my life with that attitude!!! i want to be a Luca in my own right :--)) also want to pan sear an ahi tuna or steak (i alr figured out what to do for kest's very belated bday gift + belicia's upcoming gift) and im quite excited and nervous HAHH wish me luck

also notice Gordon Ramsay always says 'stunning' 'delicious' 'dreaded pressure test' 'speed up!!!' just get me on Masterchef!!!!!!!

am currently listening to 味道 which is a song released in 1994 and i listen exclusively to Jay Chou only but!!! god the lyrics are so simple yet is akin to a stab in my chest and then a forceful tug outwards kill me just kill me i added it to my sad emotional chinese playlist in spotify which i will not elaborate on beacause its quite embarrassing but i will put the chorus here ok so you can understand how how how painful it is

想念你的笑　想念你的外套

想念你白色袜子　和你身上的味道

我想念你的吻　和手指淡淡烟草味道

记忆中曾被爱的味道