ahhhhhhh wasted. all gone to waste

if i continue keeping this inside my head, i'll explode. im not feeling inferior. just needed to get it off my chest.Share
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 at 10:44am Edit Note Delete

Im sorry if i made mistakes.
Im sorry if i have incredible moodswings and ignore the world. You included.
Im sorry if im feeling blue and tell you half-truths when you ask me if im alright.
Im sorry if i make promises only to break them in the end. And breaking your heart at the sametime.
Im sorry if im not perfect or if i do not meet your expectations.
Im sorry if i dont know how to say the right words to make you feel better. And neither do i know how to say whet i really feel.
Im sorry if you think im weird, doing stuff others dont do, saying stuff that dont make sense. Because sometimes my mind's in a mess and i dont even know what im saying.
Im sorry if i fell asleep in class. Because sometimes, i wished i could forget everything once i entered another dimension.
Im sorry if i failed that test. I really didn't mean to let you down.
Im sorry if i didn't get the results you wanted. I can only say i didnt get what i wanted too.
Im sorry if you dont understand me. Its ok. Only onerepublic can.
Im sorry if i give one word replies and hint that you're not that person i'll tell my secrets to.
Im sorry if i failed to help you. Its not a good feeling seeing you disappointed. I wished i could help myself too.
Im sorry if i cant keep up with life and worry you unknowingly. My fault.
Im sorry if i cant be that strong.
Im sorry if i cried in front of you and refused to listen to anything you said.
Im sorry for everything i've done. Because sometimes, im as confused as you are.
Im sorry if i cant be the best daughter, friend, listener, confider, student, classmate, schoolmate, mentor, mentee, granddaughter, niece, churchmate, junior, senior, violinist, fan, supporter, neighbour, owner, person or whatever. But at least i can say i tried.
Im sorry if i gave up on my dreams. Even i cant forgive myself for that. But dreams, dont mean anything to me now.
My apologies.


i wrote this like a long time ago.