its late at night

and i cant sleep.
maybe i have insomia.
i cant sleep la. :P

one day i promise i will get out of this vicious cycle.

we have so much in common.
thank you for letting me know im not the only one who feels exactly like that in this gigantular box of misfits that complement one another in the strangest way.

i do not like to be judged.

seriously.

this is who i am.

putting things into perspective

today i spoke to gordon and we talked for pretty long and talked about loads of stuff and i guess he's right. its time i took some solid steps and that i should 'begin with the end in mind' yeah sounds corny i know, but its true. i have to make some concrete steps in order to go where i want.

im gonna have to work real hard now to get where i wanna be. im considering all options and i believe God will always find a way for me. i gotta learn how to trust Him more.

i wanna live a life from a new perspective,

how many times have i said this only to switch back to the 'argh help' mode?

this time im really gonna start living from a new perspective.

no more self pity or or or procrastinating or zoning out or giving up that easily.

i miss gordon and giogi so muc, and we made a pact to meet up in vjc so im gonna just go all the way out. i can do this.

whether is violin or academics or whatever, its time i did some adjustments to my horrible mindset.

Trust in Him.

:)

OMG HAPPY B'DAY IN ADVANCED EN EN

what if

what if one day you wake up and you realised what you've been missing out all these while?

it would be too late.


HELLO NI HAO

the past week has been urgh annoying. :( so many stuffs clogging up ahh.
i need to sleep later. rawrr.
teach me how to manage my time please.
i think im addicted to american idol and glee vids ahhhhhhh~
im gonna faint.

im not looking forward to march hols. .__.
such is life.

HOWS AUSSIE AH YOU'RE KILLING ME WITH YOUR FREQUENT POSTINGS ON HOW AWESOME AUSSIE IS. but im so glad you're having fun.
you are one lucky girl.

hey,
notice i dont bother anymore? yeah i bet you do. there seems to be a change in attitude in you. actually i prefer things this way. its in a safe 'position' i guess. okay have fun dont go back to your old self.

stupid di zi gui.
dont expect me to memorise.
gahh.

wu he zhi zhong.
wu yan zhang qi.

haha i saved the cheng yus in my phone am i smart or what. :)
no church tmr, im sad. :(
i need that push from church y'know.

i think im starting to like dental appointments haha.
gums are freaking numb.

okay i need some rest for the soul/heart/mind.

im tired
:(

toxic

wah i was definately not expecting it.
maybe it doesnt mean much
but it did for me.
im going against my own consience.

ah heck with the spelling errors.

killers sounds like 'kill us'

On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The good old days, the honest man
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?

It's funny how you just break down
Waiting on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soaking my spine

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The teenage queen, the loaded gun
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, the world unseen
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well I don't mind if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you jump,
Tell me what you find..
When you read my mind

Slipping in my faith until I fall
You never returned that call
Woman, open the door, don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said I don't mind if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds, cut out of the sun
Can you read my mind

the good old days, the honest man

the restless heart, the Promised Land.

i absolutely dread mornings after my dental appointments. :(

i looked at you on the bus today and i realised that you were prolly feeling the same kind of insecurities i felt too. you were deep in thought. i wrote a short passage about you. and the vast blanket etched across the heavens.

and when you alighted i knew you were enlightened.
i could tell from your eyes.

take a leap of faith, im sure you can do this.

qwertyuiop

the eventful day.

welcome to the fallout.

tim's hamster died .__. its kinda sad cuz in two weeks time, it would be one years old.
thats how tragic life is. i think he's feeling the absence alr. i wonder what will happen to the food and cage and all that.

time flies when you're having fun.
so that means for the past two years, ive been having fun? LOL. i beg to differ. does'nt matter if you're having fun or not, time slips outta your hands just as easily.

cant believe i'll be graduating next year. the new sec 1 choir members seem quite nice i guess. wah some are like enthu ttm times 10 okay. i like the horn thingy the comm had. its so cute i cant stand it! hahaaha if you put it out your forehead, you look like a freecan UNICORN ohmytianzxc its so funny hahahahahah then there are like spirals on the horn?!?! OHMY. its quite hard eating it, you have to squeeze/suck/push to get it out. ahhh, i cant get over it. :)

fridays are funny days.

i like :)

rawr. y'know there really isnt anyone else i confide in except you? so please respond otherwise i might just explode and go boomzxc.

okay.

bye.

the first day

open 'campaign' please. its the first day i ever stayed in bed while the rest of the suckers are in school falling asleep FOR THE YEAR. hahah okay very bad la. today i realised that sleep is addictive. and i have great discipline for studying the past few years beside a bed.

im gonna looooooooooooooooooose my mind~

i shall pray hard that ian best partner gets her role :)

heh. i wonder how things will play out. maybe i shall sleep early tonight, sleep is so tantalizing ooh.

THE ROSE IS DYING I WANN CRY noooooooooooooo

idiot suddenly disappear.

i wonder wonder wonder how the new 'formation' will be like.
i wonder wonder wonder if i'll play any part in it.
i wonder wonder wonder if you can win all the awards in the world and yet lose yourself.
i wonder wonder wonder why its so hard to fall asleep.
i wonder wonder wonder how you can be so sure of the situation and yet be so unclear of your own motives and heart.

its the thinking that kills.

saengil chuka hamnida oppa!

HAPPY B'DAY TO YOU AIEVERN.

15 years alr huh.

time is precious.

okay DONT EAT SO MUCH CAKE UNTIL YOU GROW FAT :D

why dont you just

ah.

its a saturday and amaths is here to accompany me while i attempt to get myself accquainted with my calculator whom i have a love-hate relationship with.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(
zzz wahlaozxc destroyed my whole afternoon ah :(

its a quarter after 3 and im all alone and i need you now.
can you faster online?

these days i have been spending way too much time with my radio, which only means one thing.
haiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

one day i promise

i will get an iphone. RAWR. ahh technology will get the better off me i promise. GAH. sian sometimes i think my thumbdrive hates me or smth or my email has smth against me.

its a sudden unsatisfying urge to enter the mugging limbo.

a state of limbo.

makes sense. somehow.

yeah i want to be proud a bit haha but i've been working real hard these few nights but im not sure if the upcoming results might reflect it but anyways.

farewell song?

well i found it. it fits perfectly.

So I'll just say what you won't say

and I'll take the blame if it is for your sake

No turning back on what you can't save


james blunt whoo. RYAN TEDDER CO WROTE IT.

its official. i cant turn back on what i cant save. i might prefer things this way, who knows. i might revert back to blind by lifehouse but this song is going to have to mould my perception. it has to. i just have to spam the replay button. maybe all i need is a few weeks. months perhaps.

haha, translating english songs to chinese is fun whoo.

so i'll just say what you wont say.

:(

ballad of mona lisa

this song is nice okay.

ahh quick one.

chu er was busy finding yusheng and we bought sakae sushi yusheng supa awesome whoo.
okay i decided i shall start mugging!

HWAITING!

last new year~

i gave you my heart.

NI HAO. GONG XI FA CAI.
hows life?

okayyyyy. cny eve was spent watching RED CLIFF OMG takashi kaneshiro is ahhhhhh~~~~
the steamboat's soup was legen-wait for it- dary! seriously la, its the best soup ever! thank you scallops. but the sad part was that there wasnt any yusheng this year :(

went to bed at like 12 plus.

CNY CHU YI.
went to ahma's place like EVERY YEAR. its like a tradition la, go ahma house, eat beehoon, go bai nian then have the annual family photo of the 'ng' clan. LOL. our clan is quite huge. HAHA. lemme count. 2 plus 5 plus 5 plus 6 plus 4 plus 5 plus 4. EQUALS. 31 ohmy quite huge. YEAH. then idk why but no stephen chow movies leh! :( a whole bunch of distant relatives arrived and then liddat lor. .__. a bit..... idk what.

went to my mum's cousin's place RED CLIFF AGAIN AHHHH. i likeyyyyy. haha sherry was like 'zhu ge liang so handsome one meh!' HAHAAH YESSSSSS.

i think we're going to sentosa tmr. hope it doesnt rain. okay zai jian le.

WAH SEH.