manly voice

last year around this time i was sick too :(
maybe this is a yearly thing.
annually i mean.

i feel extremely listless nowadays.

lemme recount the past few days.

oh yeah ytd in the ava room kenneth was drinking water then he turned around and looked at me. then i smiled and did the peace sign and..........

he laughed and spat the water out.

why didn't i see it coming? =__=
eat or drink just make him laugh and everything will fly out.
used to it.

avoidance huh? a bit too extreme you mei you!!!!!!!!

just a thought

this broken, beaten man- me.

its heartbreaking to find a grown up man hiding away his scars and ghosts.
he has not let go of his insecurities, his disillusions.
he is lost in his own mind
he is floating away on his own isle of shattered pieces of a broken art.
his beaten heart.

he wonders how he manages to pull through each day.
chasing at tails.
pulling the puzzles
apart.

he is falling apart.

cookie monster

today i shall speak in rhyme
im running outta time
i baked cookies,
they dont look like monkeys.
its my first attempt,
i did it with my hands
(i cant find a word that rhymes with attempt)
purple blue green nutella,
these are the colours, they dont taste bad la.
im feeling kinda blue
cuz they aren't too good.
they wont make you sick
but they can easily break
the cookies are too soft
this problem must be resolved!
my mum says they're not bad
i must say i'm very glad.

teehee

i heart 202'10

legendary

harlow so exciting

okay, on monday i went to ikea with my family and after the whole trip i have a brilliant suggestion for ikea.

HAVE RENTAL SERVICES OF SHOWROOMS.
that is genius.
i am genius.
AHAHA c'mon i need the self esteem. -the D: face plus the ._. face-
anyhoo, i think its great. just put the rental rate really really low and i honestly wouldn't mind sleeping/staying in a showroom in ikea. i mean like, if you're always out and about in the day and you just need a room to dream and collect your thoughts, i think ikea would be perfect. the deco and furniture aren't that bad plus you can have meatballs for supper every night.
THIS IS DA LIFE.

oh yeah, ikea is also perfect for extreme hide and seek. you will never get found hohoho.

Tuesdayyy
went to dental with wanting and it was kinda funny. but i had second thoughts when i saw Gugu performing elaborate stunts in wanting's mouth. it didn't occur to me that while i was fascinated and amused by my aunt's manoeuvers, all these actually happened to me and i felt somewhat disturbed. i will never feel the same about dental appointments again.
ever.

Wednesday which was today la.
went to hg mall to meet up with 202'10. turns out only a third of the class came which was pretty good considering......................

okay nvm, took 89 to downtown east and we headed to the beach to take in the sun, sand and sea. i love scrawling on the sand. hehe if only the beaches in sg were as lovely and clean as those in aussie. i could just live in a sandcastle in aussie okay.

we went to rent some bikes and double bikes are definately my thing. the last three times i came here, i always rented the double bike. riding one requires great skill, coordination and mo qi. heh, chinese not bad hor! so we cycled for a pretty long time, through "alternate realities" HAHAHA went to the playground and there was this angmoh kid and we helped her up the swing so the next 20 mins sorta went like this:

PJ: hi, whats your name?
KID: bruce leeeeeeee
YH: What?!
PJ: whats your name?
KID: ajfgsjgtudhoih
YH: bruce leee hahahahha
SH: orh its rosie!!
EVERYONE: orh
GL: how old are you rosie?
ROSIE: bruce leeeeeeeeeeee
PJ: HUH?!

yeah haha and at random intervals,

ROSIE: higher!!!! faster!!!!!
GL: gimme four numbers!!

HAHAHA AH EPIC.

we continued cycling like super far. then we saw the horsey so cute!! :3

THERE'S THIS HORSE THAT LOOKS LIKE A COW. IM SERIOUS.

acs and kawee came and we ate at just acia like FINALLY.
i wanted to go ikea play hide and seek but SOME PPL DONT WANT HOR.
hmphhhhhhhhhh
okay i sound so teh.
hohohohoho

went to gillian's and i was really tired and beat so after awhile i went back.

so that was my day and it was legendary and lovely and i like. hehe

violin tmr! its time to work some fingers HWAITING!!!!!!!!

here we are againnnnnnn

hello hello i shall talk about thursday!!
thursday:
first day of june camp! it was pretty smooth i guess. :) shall talk about the nightwalk. david and i hid in 101 and waited for a super long time for the Sls to come. i had butt cramps :( the classroom was kinda freaky. david's makeup is disturbing. .__. so we waited and waited until some unsuspecting victim came in. lets just say i have a super scary scream. haha i screamed then they all ran out hahaha i sound so saddistic but yeah

friday:
amazing race!

the camp was pretty awesome really enjoyed myself yay all thanks to the comm's hardwork. :))

saturday:
i went to belicia's to cook for youth blessings' her hse is lovely ahhhh jealous!!
and then i got lost for half and hour while going to my gramps.
i took the second bus but alighted too early so i decided to walk to the busstop. so when i reached the next busstop i realised i didn't know where i was cuz all the private property looks the same and i walked into thomson estate thinking that my gramps house wld be somewhere in there. so i started walking and i thought some places looked familiar but to be honest i had no idea where i was. but luckily my uncle rescued me turns out my gramps place is at the other end.
the feeling of being lost is somewhat refreshing. at least you have no idea where you are and you wont be afraid to make a decision cuz you dont know the consequence. at least thats how i feel.

sunday:
youth blessings' hehe i kept laughing at josiah's scrambled eggs and wahlao he told ppl not to take the pasta salad hmph. shawn's pancakes not bad la i thik the chilli thingy is like the best thing ever!!! church is lovely. went home for the twins bdays. they're currently here now. i cant wait until they start to walk ahh


i love church!

'why couldn't you be a lame suburban dad for me?'

thats one of the most heartbreaking lines i ever heard on tv.

june camp starts unofficially tmr! excited!

its gonna be legend-wait for it, wait for it- DARY!!!

met up with wt and she's afraid of braces now but braces are cool even though they hurt but they're still cool. my dad's watching hawaii- 5-O i like the theme song.

haiyo, i shouldnt have typed the message its like im giving myself false second chances.


one!
two!
three!

one, two, three, four!

you are the girl, that i've been dreaming of,
ever since i was a little girl. (x2)

One!
I'm biting my tongue,
Two!
He's kissing on you,
Three!
Why can't you see?

One Two Three Four!

Words on the streets and its on the news,
Im not gonna teach him how to dance with you
He's got two left feet and he bites my moves,
Im not gonna teach him how to dance dance dance dance!
The second i do, i know we're gonna be through,
I'm not gonna teach him, how to dance with you,
You don't suspect a thing, i wish you'd get a clue,
I'm not gonna teach him how to dance dance dance dance!!

HOHO I MEMORISED THE SONG. ITS LIKE MY LIFE ANTHEM.

familiar but its a mistake.

himym can hold hard truths.
i learned alot today.

overcapacity

twitter is honestly getting on my nerves with overcapacity for like the past three million years.

o·ver·ca·pac·i·ty

/ˌoʊvərkəˈpæsɪti/ Show Spell[oh-ver-kuh-pas-i-tee] Show IPA

–noun, plural -ties.

capacity beyond what is normal, allowed, or desirable.

can your mind be experiencing 'overcapacity?' i think this is what im currently going through. so many things on my mind. sigh.

JY KAEKAE YOU CAN DO THIS! JUNE CAMP WILL BE A SUCCESS!!!!

busy week!

from tues till fri would be camps and such.
and on sat i have to go to belicia's to bake the chilli bread thingy for youth's blessing
and on sun, its the twin's b'day party and fathers' day and youth blessings
OHMYTIANZXC

kinda excited and nervous for june camp but thinking of invest is enough to kill any thoughts.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

my ipod is full of coldplay, the killers, panic, the fray, paramore and glee.

i need some katy perry okay or else i'll die.

but coldplay is so lovely.

Gavin DeGraw - Not Over You (Audio)

depressing.

i woke up today to the sound of a brand new day.
apparently it rained the night before and i felt i'd magically transported to the artic.
to be honest, invest is haunting me in my dreams. am i too paranoid? but i'm constantly thinking and worrying about invest, that its not good enough or that it wont work out. i spend most of my time thinking and weighing the possibilities, i feel so drained. and then i start panicking.

ahhh i almost started crying like some loser while talking to cindy just now.
im just really afraid. :(

and then i went for violin and ah, i feel like giving up. ive been doing the same thing for weeks and im not going anywhere. i know i should be really thankful i can learn a skill, or more like this is a gift for me. i've been doing this ever since the day i was born, for as long as i can rmb, i dont want to let go. but right now, its just a piece of wood to me. brentz is like a burden to me. i need to reignite that spark of passion (sounds wrong) and yeah i will but if i can see your continual lack of encouragement burning in your eyes, its not gonna help me.

the incessant drilling is going to kill me i promise. one more time and im going to have to move out.

1) gramps place
too far from school and too much distractions(food). but there are like two cars so maybe that solves my problem of going to school. plus there is an extra room right at the top and the balcony is just right outside. i can climb out of the window to the balcony.

2)other gramps place
quite far but not as far as place 1. the twins will be there which means i cant study and i will be distracted. plus there arent any computers even though i wouldnt mind sleeping on the couch. plus my grandad is the best male chef ever.

3) wanting's place
too many distractions

4)louisa's place
same as above.

5)stay where i am
its still as far from school and the noise is there -__-

what a dilemma i need to wallow in selfpity.

sigh.

oh wait.

6) changi airport
perfect.

aish

apparenly you dont, you wont, you never would.

meant to live

some songs carry the deepest meanings ever. like this one. at times when everything seems to be going against you they provide the perfect soundtrack to your life at that moment.

okay im done with apple products im so mad i cant work itunes argh.
maybe i should start on my charles letters to tracy. yeah i could. however my brain is drained of inspiration and im not in my writing mood thanks to itunes. -__-

but i will write! yeah i will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

itunes succccccck

oh cant you see

its going to be a year now.
ah.
by the end of june you can call me a loser.
its been a year and i have done nothing. nothing at all.
am i stupid or what.
yeah i am.

words on the street and its on the news~

IM NOT GONNA TEACH HIM HOW TO DANCE WITH YOUUUU

this song i so addictive i swear. xinfony on friday but ppl are getting hfmd! :( get well soon chest hair and kaweeeee

aiyo i cant watch himym im sad :(