the time of the year

I shall do the annual new years eve blogpost. But instead of listing out the best/worst things of the year, I shall just talk about whatever I've been through this year.

So, in Jan, Cairo flew away to Aussie. I was kinda blue for awhile because I really didn't wanna be stuck in SG. Basically everything was so academically oriented its really annoying. I just wanted to do what I really want and enjoy while I'm able to and not spend my youth wasted behind the pile of books and constant mindset of 'doing well in school'. Having said that I really missed her too. So it was kinda hard emotionally too I guess?

There was also syf, where everyone wanted a gwh so desperately. And when we clinched it, you have no idea how relieved we were. So the year started off promising and then the seniors stepped down, leaving the sec3s to step up. And so we did, taking part in the syf closing ceremony did indeed bring us closer. But come November, the passing of Mrs Yeap... It kinda felt really different. Like, really empty and lost? After all it was my first wake I attended, perhaps it was just all too new. But I shall talk about this later.

Being the oic of invest was a huge responsibility too, so many times I wanted to give up. It's just so hard continuing when you see everything you worked so hard for suddenly going off course and when your plans are drastically changed at the last minute its really hard to keep strong and keep going. It was draining yknow? Invest may seem easy but trust me, its not. There's so many aspects to look after and when you don't have much support and affirmation, you just feel really lost. But I'm glad I managed to pull it off. And I can never thank my fellow oic enough for all the trust she had in me and all the help she given me. So yeah.

The best thing that happened this year? Prolly the Taiwan trip. The worst? Well I guess there are a few but really I only have myself to blame. Perhaps after a long period of time, I've gotten used to it, so much so it doesn't bother me as much. Maybe it'll all be better this way. If I just left it there. Last year was a terrible year. Probably the worst ever. This year would be golden if I compared it to last year. Come to think of it, I'm really glad I survived last year. I know for many ppl 2011 was a horrid year but trust me, once you go through 'the worst year ever' the rest of the years will be better. #TrueStory HAHA to be honest I still think about last year sometimes and I wonder if perhaps if I did things differently, things would've be as bad but really, I would have done the same thing over again. Looks like whatever that happened was meant to be. Ohwell 2010 changed me. Drastically. But 2011 kinda more or less kept me the same? HAHA well I did attend my first concert this year (PARAMORE) and I won tickets for that and it was also the first time I went on radio hehe so yeah even though nothing sad/bad/emotionally draining happened this year, nevertheless I've learnt a lot. It was really eventful. Okaye I can't think of the best songs of 2011 but I'll think about it and I'll get back to you alright.

It's my senior year when school starts. I can totally relate to Rachel and Kurt and of course Finn. Like Finn, I haven't decided what I truly want. Of course I'll go along with my interests but what if I'm not good enough like how Finn didn't get his scholarship? And also, I want to leave smth behind, but there's no musical to take part in like how Rachel did. Perhaps if you count Melizo but there aren't any leads in Melizo. Yeah I've done invest, but still. I guess I'm just like Kurt. I wanna achieve smth and perhaps it'll look stunning in my resume and maybe that'll get me into some awesome institute. But Kurt has nothing (other than being a congressmen's son).

Having said that, I look forward to 2012 and the only thing I'll wish for is for COLDPLAY TO COME TO SINGAPORE AND ME GETTING AN AWESOME TICKET TO THEIR CONCERT WITH MY FELLOW COLDPLAYERS I'm serious that's all I'll ever ask for next year heh #fangirl the rest of the other things, are up to me. I decide if I want 2012 to be a good year or a bad one. I don't believe in fate, its bull really. I commit my life into my own hands and God too of course. I'm thankful for so many things too. I think SG should have a thanksgiving day because ppl tend to focus on whatever they don't have and neglect whatever they have. They need to be reminded to be thankful. So I thank God for 2011 and come what may huh 2012!

HAHA have a wonderful/legendary/supermegafoxyawesomehot/winning New Year's Day and 2012! Always rmb to be thankful and that fate lies in your hands. I wish you all, all the best and the best of health and God bless.

Love, Kristie.

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Arlandria

Ain't that the way it always starts.
A simple round of conversation.
Became a shameful equation.
I flipped from station to station.

Hey. Don't go and turn the other way.
Don't say there's nothin more to say.
Come on, hear me out.
Hush, hush, settle down.
Button up, don't make a sound.
Shame, shame, go away.
Come again some other day.

You used to say I couldn't save you enough,
So I've been saving it up, I started saving it up.
And when you said I couldn't give you enough,
I started giving you up, I started giving you up.

You are not me, Arlandria, Arlandria.
You and what army, Arlandria, Arlandria?
Oh, God you gotta make it stop.

Chase all of those memories away,
Save them all for another day.
Don't you remember it was rain that drowned you.

Wait!
I wanna see if you can shake.
I want to keep all I can take,
I feel much better now.
Use me up, spit me out,
Let me be your hand-me-down.
Fame, fame, go away, come again some other day.

You used to say I couldn't save you enough,
So I've been saving it up, I started saving it up.
And when you said I couldn't give you enough,
I started giving you up, I started giving you up.

You are not me, Arlandria, Arlandria.
You and what army, Arlandria, Arlandria?
Oh, God you gotta make it stop.

My sweet Virginia, I'm the same as I was in your arms.
My sweet Virginia, I'm the same as I was in your heart.

Shame, shame go away,
Come again some other day.
Memories keep haunting me.
Help me chase them all away.
Hush, now settle down,
Button up, don't make a sound.
Close your eyes, turn around.
Help me burn this to the ground.
Come now, take the blame, that's okay, I'll play the game.
I don't care, it's all the same, watch it all go up in flames.
Use me up, spit me out,
Let me be your hand-me-down.
Fame, fame, go away, come again some other day.

You used to say I couldn't save you enough,
So I've been saving it up, I started saving it up.
And when you said I couldn't give you enough,
I started giving you up, I started giving you up.

You are not me, Arlandria, Arlandria.
You and what army, Arlandria, Arlandria?
Oh, God you gotta make it stop.

My sweet Virginia, oh, God you gotta make it stop.
My sweet Virginia, oh, God you gotta make it stop.

Foo Fighters - Arlandria (Live on Letterman)

i like my music loud and angry with loads of guitar riffs ohyeah~~

To all the writers in the world

The past few months have been absolute hell for me. How long can writer's block last? It seems like an eternity. I am drained of inspiration, i am in desperate need of inspiration, well after all, that's how i write. Somehow, 'force-reading' myself is not helping. It used to work though, just hastily going through one book and I'm bursting with ideas.. but I've already tried, even reading 2 books consecutively. 1Q84 is proving to be a difficult read. The idea is fascinating but its so abstract, its hard to grasp. 900 pages of thinking within thinking. Bookception. I really need some inspiration or the ink in my pen might just bleed out and dry and i may never write again. Remedy please?

500 days of summer analysis

Are all girls like summer Finn? Or are they like Tom Hansen?

Girls are usually depicted as the the heartbroken ones in relationships and I guess they are more emotionally attached to it than guys. I mean guys tend to be the ones who are shown to get over failed relationships easily, at least on the surface lah. It's like the mass media usually portray girls to be more vulnerable, whether physically or emotionally, than guys. Maybe not all, maybe some guys are like Tom Hansen, but that is quite unusual. So called the more 'emo' boys. Seldom you'll see girls like summer who is more free spirited and quirky and leaves guys suddenly

Hm do you think someone can be both a summer Finn and Tom Hansen? Like to certain ppl they just have to leave them for the betterment of whatever they deem worthy of and for perhaps a certain person they'll always be a Tom Hansen? Is that possible?

Maybe Summer Finn is a Tom Hansen towards the guy she's engaged to. Yes I think it's possible for a person to be both summer and tom. For someone like summer who doesn't believe in love at all and gets engaged, then the other party must be someone that is really special to her to have broken through her defensive wall towards love which has been erected around her whole mindset/actions/mannerisms/behavior etc. I believe it won't be easy to meet someone who is able to alter your whole perception of love, and if that person comes along, of course you'll hold on to him and become a Tom Hansen just because of the fact that he changed you and show you a world you've never experienced before

Now a final question, will a Tom Hansen ever get over whoever who broke his heart? And will he still be a sucker for love?

Anyway I think a Tom Hansen will take a long time to get over someone who broke his heart since he devoted so much of himself into the girl. I'm guessing he will be thinking of her every moment, but he'll get over her eventually. How long it'll take, it depends on him, and the people he meets. If someone like autumn comes along and he spends time with her and finds out; hey, she's interesting, he'll most likely see things differently. If autumn is intriguing enough, and he dates her, then I reckon while he is dating he'll be thinking of what ifs scenarios with summer. What if the person with him is summer right now? Maybe he'll even take autumn as a replacement for summer at the beginning, because he recognizes that feeling he has had with summer while with autumn. Is he in love again? I'm guessing he'll see some parts summer in autumn. But gradually he would see the difference between them and really fall for autumn. And I think he will still be a sucker for love, but not as much as before cause he got hurt, and maybe his belief is shaken

So true.

Now from another perspective.

can a person be both a summer and tom?

Cause right usually people's brains have a subconscious defense system which ties a feeling with a memory. So for example if you are heartbroken from a relationship right now next time you'll naturally be extra wary and suspicious. I'm sure you've experienced it before. It's just your brain trying to protect yourself from pain luh.

Hm another question, will a tom-tom couple work out?

But usually I would say a Tom-Tom relationship would be more stable than a summer-Tom relationship purely because a summer-Tom relationship is a relationship is based on superiority and it's really quite difficult to work out unless the Tom is really patient.

Wow so much thinking for a day.  btw these questions came up when I was thinking of 500. It's such a heart breaking movie and yet so relevant. I guess I've got most of my questions answered.

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red checkered shirt

There's this episode in himym called 'Slutty Pumpkin' and in this episode, Ted meets a girl dressed as a pumpkin at a Halloween party and Ted, being Ted was smitten of course. But he never found out who she was and every Halloween, he wears the same costume and goes to the same party in hopes of meeting pumpkin again. And years later, he managed to track her down. Well today I had a similar experience. It was like a 'romantic scene out of a Katherine Heigl movie'. I shan't elaborate because if I do, I'm afraid I may mix up some details. Let's just call him red checkered shirt. So when will I see your face again?

But as we all know, after Ted found pumpkin he realised they weren't right for one another. Wow what a Xmas.

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may your troubles soon be gone, oh Xmas lights, keep shining on

Blessed Xmas to all and family :) wow my mum gave me 1Q84 which is like the book I'm anticipating the most to read! But its so heavy and huge! And its 900pages long! Ohmygoodness I think I need 2 months to finish it. Service was so good this morning. :) I guess it'll feel more like Christmas if it snowed.

When you're still waiting for the snow to fall, it doesn't really feel like Christmas at all.

But nevertheless Christmas is about Christ and I'm so thankful for Christ coming to earth as a baby and everything he has done in my life.

Merry Xmas everyone.

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LOL I remember my time when the class list came out. Was hellavu happy girl. HAHA

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sorry for awesom-ing all over the place

Wow this year's sec 1 registration is completely different from the previous years. Instead of traditional pen and paper registration at the foyer, the SLs used macbooks instead! #style Anyhoo, guess what? During open house, I brought this family around and I kinda psycho-ed them into picking XMS as their first choice and guess what! That guy is  now gonna be part of this XMS family! Heh plus he was in the class I was registering for! His folks still recognise me #SenseOfAccomplishment! I can't help if I awesomed all over them. Swarley mode HAHA I sent the pictures for printing, maybe I'll get them later and I can finally start writing/decorating/framing.

Amos has eyeboobs HAHAHA #TrueStory they're so hilarious

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supermeganfoxyawesome

Darren Criss ^^ LOL why doesn't anyone know the killers? They're gonna kill us all. there's just smth so unique about the killers.. their joyous sound and their hilarious lyrics. Some carry deep meanings, others are just plain funny. And brandon's voice ahhh~~ with a surname like that, how, could we ever deny you?

#fangirl

Spent the whole afternoon at orchard getting gifts wow I love orchard its so happening! Thank God the trains were fine, just creepy noises and.. really weird speeds. Heh SO TRIUMPHANT TODAY!

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Sunday

I love Sundays ^^ who's with me?

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fell through with solutions

How many times has it been? I can keep track of every single time you end up in the same situation time and again. Every single time you get your hopes up and you're so happy about it and when you tell me about it, I'm so happy for you. But I'm always telling you to watch out and keep a guard because I know how it all ends. Every single time. And now you got your heart broken again. Why am I not surprised? You refuse to listen to my advice and every time you're feeling so terrible, I feel terrible too. Mann you're just like Ted Mosby. 10 mins into knowing someone and you say you're in love. Really, just wait it out alright? How many times do you wanna go through the same thing again? I wish you would listen to me for once. Perhaps you wouldn't be so hurt. You're a good guy, all these.. 5 years I've known you, I can safely say I know you better than you know yourself. Sigh when will you ever learn.

Okaye whatever I'm gonna say has no relation to whatever's above. I love Americans and their culture  but I love Singaporeans and our supermeganfoxyhot culture even MORE. so back off fadedholysoldier stop whining about dee kosh's awesomehotsauce comebacks and go back to your bottle. What you posted was not cool, it just showed how ignorant you are.

Seriously.. some ppl need to think before they act.

GO DEE KOSH I LOVE YOU BRO, YOU ARE THE PRIDE OF SINGAPORE.

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feast for the eyes

Me: yeah and there's this black dude.. Omg his body damn defined. Like dark chocolate.

LRR: OMG. Can lick?

HAHA!

There's this dude called Marcus Seng on fb and that kind soul uploaded a whole album full of a&f boys and he made it public. How can we ever thank him enough?

No. 1 stalker is in L.A.! heh if you're seeing this, we need to coordinate our timings! Rmb to keep whatsapp-ing me, I will too and take care of yourself!

OMG I WANNA GO A&F *_*

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bryan

Dear most loyal stalk- I mean reader of my blog. HAHA please take care of yourself in US alright always keep warm and rest well! Go study hard and return a mentalist and do unimaginable stuff to our minds! I really hope it snows on Xmas and whatsapp me whenever you can okaye! Take a lot of pictures and don't keep eating salad! -__- please get a pink shirt, if you do I'll be very happy. And if you wear it in US I'll be even happier. Hope you get all the stuff that you want okaye! Have a safe journey there and back, I hope there's Glee on the plane. I'll miss you everyday and come back soon! LOL I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU! IT'S GONNA BE LEGENDARY! :D p.s. try not to miss me so much and pls get some sleep tonight okaye

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In the sanctuary during camp echo,

Isaac: who wanted to be a policeman when they were younger?

Josiah: KRISTIE!

Isaac: who wanted to be a princess?

Me: JO-SIAH!

Josiah: Yay!

Haha, today's camp echo..echo..echo.. was so nostalgic, can't believe camp concluded on Monday and its only Sunday! Wow time passes so slowly x_x really miss papaya and the amazing race :'( Anyhoo, the main highlight of camp echo was the video screening...let's not talk about it shall we? #SocialSuicide HAH but there were some nice pictures of me ^^ the worst part is that everything is going on Facebook OH HELL TO THE NO. Haha I can't wait for camp next year, and Tim will actually be joining. Okaye cool. HAHA I just hope they won't screen the video during main service..... Just shoot me.

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Cinema

I could watch you for a lifetime,

You're my favourite movie,

A thousand endings

You mean everything to me

I never know what's coming,

Forever fascinating

Hope you don't stop running, to me

Cuz I'll be waiting

You are, a cinema

I could watch you forever

Action, thriller

I could watch you forever

You are a cinema,

A Hollywood treasure

Love you, just the way you are

A cinema, a cinema

Okaye the lyrics might be wrong, I'm just typing whatever I hear. THIS SONG IS SO ADDICTIVE and the lyrics are so unique! Baked for Youth Blessings tmr LOL half green half red starshaped cookies pls don't be afraid to eat them. HAHA

who says you don't learn much from sitcoms? Somehow the first (or second) episode of season 7 of HIMYM has a huge imprint on me. So basically in the episode, Robin realises she's still in love with Barney and Lily finds out. So Lily, being Lily, encourages her to make her feelings known to Barney. 'You guys have chemistry!' She insists. So as Robin decides to tell Barney, Barney admits how he's been calling Nora for the past few days and that he has this special feeling towards her so Robin decides not to. She then tells Ted about how Lily was going on about chemistry when really timing is the main factor in a relationship. 'Chemistry is important, but timing is everything.' Robin decides. Well this is pretty true, many times you have great chemistry with somebody and even others can tell but if the timing is wrong, you really can't expect much to happen. I guess its a 'could've been' but you'll never know when the timing might be right, because once you have chemistry, you can't go wrong. LOL Dr Kristie in the house! HAHA yes it is sad and untimely, what a pity really. But yknow, you can't deny that chemistry.

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as always

Yknow that moment when you have this urge to tell your folks about your friends and yet you restrain cuz you're afraid how they would judge them? Well, HAH this isn't about me having those moments but rather being the subject of the conversation. Recently my sistaa~~ and I were texting and his aunt 'caught' him in the act, and so my sistaa told his aunt all about yours truly. Honored? Yes I am but the things he told his aunt about were NOT VERY APPEALING THINGS. Like, my height.. as yall might know, I'm not very tall. And even that's an understatement. He even showed his aunt my picture and guess what she said? 'she looks like a sec 1' owwwww! Sigh its alright can't help looking youthful all the time (selfdenial) But I'm sure my sistaa said some nicer stuff about me (liar). So I guess the point of this post is that I'm young. LOL I KID.

The thing is we never know when someone would tell their relatives/family about you and they do that for all the right reasons or maybe for all the wrong reasons. So depending on how bad (or good) your impression on someone is, determines the things someone might say about you. Of course we all wann to leave a great impression but that doesn't translate to being all fake and unnaturally nice all the time. So I guess, just being yourself is prolly the best impression you can leave on anybody because that's just who you are. Mann I sound way too cheesy. But yeah. HAHA I hope 202ers have fun today ^^

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yellow

Ah, made me cry.

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I want it that way

Confession: I like backstreet boys.

Wow gonna be mad busy for Xmas. Need to get gifts, wrap them, set up the Xmas tree, bake, and of course spring cleaning.

Breaking Dawn so anticlimatic btw. Wah seriously gonna be busybusy for Xmas ohwell.

LOL I find it hilarious when Kenneth refers to my parents as 'your folks' just cuz I call them 'my folks' HAHA he's back finally so is LRR! Might call him/her later so excited to hear about their adventure ^^

I had a terrible dream last night. And yknow how ppl say that usually the last dream you have before you wake up won't come true? Well it wasn't the last dream.. silly as it sounds, I'm afraid it'll really happen. If it does, I think... I think I'll have no idea what to do.

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precious cornerstone, sure foundation

Wah camp theme songs always make me teary because throughout the whole camp we've been learning so much and the theme song always ties in with all the messages.

Well this camp was really well planned great job camp comm! Get some sleep! :D I shall talk about the 4th day! We had service in the morning and Pastor Roger Chia talked about the coming of Jesus and how we should prepare for it. And then we played the game of life, like we really had to play it out in the hall. So its like we all took a test on LPYM Camp Nexus and according to our score we were given degrees... Etc. And we each had a house in the hall which was a chair and there were stations for you to get a job/married/stuff and a 24/7 casino HAHA I went to work first and omg separating green/red/black beans is TOUGH. so.... I MARRIED SHAWN HAHA. He had to propose through the mike omg. Then all the newly weds had to have their wrists tied tgt and like both of us were tied tgt like literally tied. Not just at the hands. So movement was hard D: but getting married eased the workload though HAHA belicia left jairus! And then we got a phD for Shawn, wait this makes Josiah my brother-in-law GLEEKS UNITE! and then we went to the casino HAHA so hilarious some ppl blew all their money at the casino then at the end we returned to the sanctuary. Shawn and I counted our total, around 7400bucks. But then we all died and everything was taken from us. Which was kinda expected la. Then we had a bbq for dinner ^^ and finally the last night! Josiah went full warbler with the suit and tie -__- okaye fine I'm jealous. And zep dances like a girl no joke. Mr taxi taxi taxi. HAHA one of the games was to come up with a dance for the opening song from shows and we got Power Rangers which was hilarious since the only lyrics were go go power rangers! Haha and yay best dressed :) papaya won woohoo we got sparkling to celebrate so that was really awesome! And angel mortal!

On the second day my angel gave me two numbers and told me to call him but he signed off as your awesome angel so I thought he was a girl and even kester and the rest agreed. But then this morning he wrote that he was actually a guy and that Kevin Sia is his cousin so wow, revelation! So today we revealed angel and mortal and I kinda could guess who my angel was and jang Jang Jang jang, it was Dairus! Haha, shocking! The great thing about youth camp is that the drum set, grand piano, bass, acoustic are always there for you to play. WAH SERIOUSLY THIS GUY PLAYED THE DRUMS LIKE A PRO AND I WAS LIKE BAB- haha I'm serious. Gideon and belicia can play the guitar really well :p wow camp was really great ^^ camp echo next week and youth blessings gonna bake cookies! Wow I think my IQ fell drastically during the camp. I know I'm quite blur sometimes but this time I'm like super blur. Like when Gerard said 'the most blur of your group..' everyone in papaya was like 'Kristie'. :(

Fine. Haha I LOVE CHURCH AND CHURCH CAMPS AND CHURCHMATES AND GOD.

Shall end off with a verse

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Amen.

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get it right

It's the third day of youth camp! Finally found the time to blog. How is everyone? No suicidal tendancies I hope? NAH I kid. Anyhoo lemme tell you about my past few days in camp!

We had an amazing race around Sentosa ytd and things turned out pretty messy considering the crazy things they got us to do at the stations. One of them was to do jumping jacks at the shallow end of the sea, run up the shore, spin 5 times, do a barrel roll across (on the sand of course) and run back into the sea. Not pretty. But it was so fun oh the things you do at camp!

And today I found my soulmate. Her name is Ynez. Mad cool. And guess what? THE FIRST EVER FEMALE COLDPLAYER I FOUND! she watches glee, himym, and xfactor! WHAT IS UP! Basically all my likes sia! Oh and she's not into kpop too! ^^  And josiah challenged me to this game where we have to carry out a conversation that makes sense with as many glee songs possible. Challenge accepted.

Expectation: 'Rumor has it's that 'Jessie's girl', 'Valerie', is a 'P. Y. T.' and can 'Sing' like a 'Blackbird' because she was 'Born this way'.

Reality: uh.. wait. Uh. Rumour has it that someone like you uhh..

Tch just you wait josiah.

Today we had games and someone got injured :l pray pray pray. Our group is currently in the leads though!

To be honest I don't exactly understand fully the messages from day one. I know its about salvation and all that, like the old earth and heaven vs the new earth and heaven, basically a lot of Romans stuff. Hopefully I manage to clear all that by Monday. Church tmr! :D

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