Rabbit or duck?

Watched this episode after lunch with Chester today and it didn't really make sense but I thought about it and I guess its really simple to switch from a rabbit to a duck or the other way round. Its almost easy its basically the same set of feelings but perhaps just a different perspective and maybe you just need someone to fix that for you and you start to see it from a drastically contrasting light and your whole mindset changes. Its what you want versus what you think you want. And I do feel extremely disenchanted now like there isn't really a point in it anymore, I understand why now so many souls are afraid of merging and converging and getting tangled and melded I don't even know why I thought it was even a good idea but to be honest I feel much safer this way in my own mind and in my lonely thoughts (I was always lonely) maybe I need some evidence or smth to change my mind but in a long time to come I think I know what I want.