sigh. Its been a pretty exhausting week and yet I know there's more to come but ah well COME WHAT MAYYY Kinda sad that I didn't make the cut :( always saw myself as a performer I really do miss performing :( sigh I don't even know why I'm feeling so much from this I just kinda do miss performing alot and I HAD TO WATCH GLEE WHICH MADE IT 100000x WORST I really do want to go overseas one day and getting a degree in Lit or maybe I'll drop outta sku n bcum a sommelier lulz I needa sign from the universe speaking of which idk mann but finding signs from the universe always gave me comfort in some weird aspect. Honestly speaking when you believe/want smth so much and so badly you just start looking for signs from a divine nature to substantiate your stand and when that happens you feel really good about yourself but when it doesn't you just carry on looking for other signs but that's kinda bull cuz you only believe in what you want to believe. I mean its really up to you to decide what makes a 'sign from the universe' right?? sigh I didn't get accepted for both maybe I was expecting too much from the whole situation sighhhhhhhhh I just want so much to make a difference. I mean that was the whole point of me coming here right? ah well