day in brief

1) spent half the day at kkh and it was filled with kids and i thought united square was bad. I have this love/hate r/s with kids like sometimes they are so adorable i just wanna kiss them and pinch their little cheekies and snuggle them but sometimes i really wanna throw them off high places and kick them and i am terrible but these are my true feelings. pls do not cry or scream or make loud annoying noises i shouted 'shut up' at a toddler today i feel really bad now BUT NO REMORSE seriously control your kid!!!!!!!! I cannot cannot cannot imagine myself as a parent like how am I supposed to be responsible for someone's life when I can't even find my way out of the toilet at kkh????? (i was alone and there were alot of corridors it was very confusing) and I will prolly treat my kid like a pet like a little puppy and hold them on a leash i cannot imagine what sort of horrible parent i will be, son/daughter, if you are reading this in the future, this is my apology. but i promise i will do my bestest. Saw a few kids wearing the patient outfit and some had bandages and needles poking into their arms and I felt so sad for them they're so tiny they shouldn't be allowed to go through this pain

2) made a mixtape for sh (it was really just a CD la but im tryna be cool) and I wish I was good at doodling then I could prolly do cool album art for her but no I suck. I named the mix tape 'Songs About Jane (A Little Summer, A Little Damper)' as you can see I love long album titles 'Songs About Jane' cuz I added the whole album in and summer/damper cuz most of the other songs were sad songs but they sound happy?? so the end result is actually pretty optimistic. Shall make one for Toose since her bday is coming up anyway

3) I GOT A JOB AT AN ICE CREAM PARLOUR I AM SO EXCITEDDDDDD

4) some ppl cant take a hint.

5) SO SICK OF MEDSOC

6) need to go gym tmr i am kinda craving the empowerment i feel after a successful session

7) its so ridiculous of me to have subconscious thoughts about things that will never happen throughout the day and yet I keep doing it maybe cuz I keep forgetting that its not possible aye