I guess sometimes when I'm going home alone on public transport this sort of loneliness sinks in and I wish it never happened but at the same time I feel an odd sense of liberation. It fuels my wandering- what if I did this overseas (meaning that I would leave sg and live elsewhere by myself)? It's a strange kind of triumph that I cannot word. And I still feel cracks, empty spaces lacking what I initially felt. This is taking a little longer than I expected though but still I try my bestest everyday