I feel like I am going to die

a few weeks (or months) back i self-diagnosed my constant feelings of drowning and dread and labeled it 'premature quarter life crisis' and it seems like im going through that again seriously i feel like i am drowning in air and my bones, my bones feel like anchors i am literally living for thursday evenings (cuz technically thursday nights are what i consider the start of my weekend) i want to puke seriously i want to leave sg and do missions or smth like that and not come back anymore i keep asking myself 'what the hell am i doing with my life?' i feel so lost and confused even though there is nth out there to let my mind get tangled and warped up with i feel like i am going to die like my life is coming to a halt that everyth is going downhill from now this better be a phase this better be the 'youth maturing into adulthood syndrome' phase this better fade when i finally get my shit tgt and STOP wondering, the grass is always greener on the other side, better suck it up and appreciate what im doing now this better be a phase i am not going to self-destruct.