heichou

very eventful week why is the week passing so slowly anyway i will just summarise:

1) my shopping stamina is depleting rapidly not even kidding i am ashamed come to think of it, how did i manage that undying thirst in Taiwan? I was never tired plus I even came up with strategies on how to shop and planning my routes im not even kidding. That time in the factory outlet in Gold Coast we had a map and I literally spent my lunch marking out the targets plus routes to maximise my shopping trip I was a professional ok but now after 3 shops I am exhausted :( but then again I spend alot of time in a shop and maybe im just getting old :( end of an era rip professional shopper kris

2) very excited for FBC!!!!!!!

3) I missed Cairo so much I finally met up with her and we have such a lovely time being touristy and dressing Japanese which I completely butchered LOL SO IRONIC but then again not like I ever had much Jap influence. Told her that nowadays my greatest fear is what my future holds and 1) will I get a job I really love or will I loathe it or what if my dream job turns out to be smth I detest? 2) will I ever meet my soulmate LOL (dont mock me ok I think about this alot esp since himym is ending and i dont wanna be like ted i dont wanna die alone) 3) will i ever accomplish anyth in 10 years 4) will i ever migrate to taiwan 5) when will i feel like an adult
honestly ever since last Nov I keep having such thoughts and I am honestly petrified, I for one am not the kind to think long term or think about the future, I always told myself that things will work out one way or another, there's really no point worrying and most of my decisions aka life changing ones are fueled 78% by emotions plus my impulsivity (I am a very impulsive person) and so to actually worry about my future, wow I guess its payback time from past kristie, everyday I cant help but feel like I am going to puke just thinking about my future. 'keeping my options open' is such a euphemism, actually, more of an excuse for not grabbing your own future in by the ears and yanking them (not off) but in the direction where you wanna go but ah, I am not young anymore its time to GET MY SHIT TGT but Cairo said she hardly feels like an adult too. Plus she has only one year left BUT PLS she is way more independent than I am or than I ever was when I was 16, I mean like I can't even cook simple dishes i am a domestic failure JIALAT BETTER FAMILIARIZE MYSELF WITH POTS AND PANS but gosh I am so happy to meet that beautiful lady I missed her so much <3 nbsp="" p="">
4) had a horrifying thought and had an internal mental breakdown halfway through an Open House talk at NUS, I suddenly wondered, what if all my best mates went overseas to study holy shit that means only ky, sis and gordy will be around for 2 years in NS and by the time I graduate, they will prolly leave NS too and then what if they leave SG wah I cannot tahan this REALISATION but neither can I ignore it cuz it might happen and that will be it mann. the absolute end of kristie swaggie ng lol if, IF this ever happens Lord pls help me tide through this I dont even want to imagine the amount of tears I will shed every night when this happens

5) after a long hiatus I finally finished SNK and I was never really a fan of anime (other than Gundam OMG I WAS SO OBSESSED WITH GUNDAM KIRA YAMATO WAS SO CUTE PLUS THE STORY LINE SO TRAGIC MY CHILDHOOD) but wow WOW SNK IS SO EXCITING WTH NO SHOW HAS MADE ME GASP AND AND SIT UPRIGHT IN MY CHAIR AND PAUSE THE SHOW CUZ THE EVENTS THAT WERE COLLAPSING (not even unfolding that will be too meek, its COLLAPSING)  BEFORE MY EYES WERE TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE after it ended I was undergoing serious withdrawal symptoms so I read the manga online from where the anime left off AND OMG ITS EVEN WORST I WAS ACTUALLY HESITANT TO PRESS 'NEXT' ky says im addicted LOL he doesnt know about how i react to himym hahahahha and now after scrolling through snk tumblrs it has kinda spoilt the show for me cuz i dont find it tragic anymore i find it FUNNY which is just perverse because in every episode at least 30 ppl die lol but hahaha so funny when eren says 'heichouuuuuu' ahh cutie
am watching MMFD too and wow its just eyecandy throughout Dan Cohen and Nico Mirallegro <3 nbsp="" p="">
I love Rae so much she is such an interesting character and she actually feels like an actual teenager LOL like her problems, however trivialised or serious are actually very real problems we face and the things she say omg. there was a line 'Finn is so out of my league that no one will ever suspect that I liked him' YES!!!!!! hahahhaaha what I think all the time props to scriptwriters yay!!

6) I have 10 books to read, 3 which I left off halfway but I dont think I'll be reading 3 of them which leaves 7 books and I cannot decide which one to read first and I also need to watch GoT (I have S1 and S2) and I need to find a replacement for HIMYM and also watch the remaining Leo Di movies plus I need to explore so many other places too AHH, so many things to do, so many places to be lets see if I manage to complete any in the upcoming week LOL