take one eighty

whoo.
ytd was awesome. :) met so many rosyth ppl. really missed the past.
argh. whyh can tthey just let us in mannzxc!
:(

but ytd was real great, haha had so much fun with gerald and co.
looking forward to dec class gathering!
it'll be as great. :)

yayy, i havent been this happy for a long time!

FEAR.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh, im super scared. i saw that and i died. :(
help. :( i very scared now.

today was fun. :)
running around teh school wearing my mask.
scared kenneth, haha his response was epic HAHAHAHA
got a few moments of delirium.

whooooo. :)
heeheeheehee/

this week was okay i guess.
hmmm.

maybe that selfhelp book might help.
i just saw a "parenting" book.
LOL.
dunno la.

think about violin.
posture.
violin.
violin.
violin.
okay.

alibies.

lover's alibies.

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you and all along
You were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything
That I need just to make it and I can see that

Lord knows I've failed you, time and again
But you and me are all right

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are
Is everything that's right
All we need, all we need
A lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose, I need to get
Some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground

Lord knows I'll fail you, time and again
But you and me, we're alright

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are
Is everything that's right
All we need, all we need
A lover's alibi

Every single day that I can breathe
You changed my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say your goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change

So don't say your goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are
Is everything that's right
All we need, all we need
A lover's alibi

So don't say our goodbyes
You know it's better
We won't break, we won't die

onerepublic.
best.

whooo.
eoy.
violin.
okay.
bye.

i need time.

i should start on something.

hello.

i've just been informed that i will be taking my violin exam on 14 sept, which is, less than a month away.

i am not done with my three pieces.

my sightreading is of a horrible calibre

aural is, _______.

ohno.

this is definitely, not what i was expecting.

but i guess.

this can be an excuse from studying.

not like i do that.

but honestly, i prefer killing some musical notes, to killing some BRAINCELLS.

see the difference?

yeahs.

i realised all my pieces have super high notes, like what, the real high D? third position. most of my pieces have that too.

what else.

uhhh.

uhhh.

hmm.

oh.

harmonic.

slide the finger across the string.

hit the last tape.

let go.

(nice sound)

posture.

my posture is bad.

wrist out, elbow in, shoulder up.

right hand relax.

dont feel tense.

left hand move with ease.

tone quality.

not bad.

scales.

d major is improving.

c major, is "okay" too.

the rest are simple.

minor scales, harmonic.

slurred, 2 counts in a bow.

arppegios, minor, must place second finger close to first.

chromatic.

timing, timing, timing.

sliding must be smooth.

ooh, triplets, trill. please dont hold the last note.

acciccaturra.

smooth please.

sightreading.

timing.

accidentals.

dynamics.

play slowly.

aural,

not bad.

okay, today was boring. almost cried on the bus. all thanks to act cool.

and partly because of jaychou.

i reallyreallyreally wanna go to the f1 rocks concert. like real bad. :(

if i cant get my hands on the tickets,

i can just die.

seriously.

:(

i dont like this.

the feeling is not good.

at all.

okay lets see.

the cracks on my feet have closed up.

hopefully not much of my soul has leaked out from these cracks while they were opened.

i used to have a goal.

like.

at least.

some motivation.

but right now.

i.

cant.

be.

bothered.

streaming.

they all say.

dreaming.

im doing that all day.

been far away for far too long

hello. i have twitter.

kryyysteee

dunno why suddenly hang. o.o
no fate.
haha.

watch my face.
as i pretend to feel no
pain, pain, pain.


happy b'day shihui. :)

somehow i find that im starting to care less about eveything.
maybe except violin and ahem

lol,

im falling apart, im barely breathing.

im so exhausted.
:(
i dont even have the energy to think.
pain,
pain
pain

run to you.

I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
That’s when I run to you

Chorus
This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run to
I run to you

We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you

ooh, belicia has gotten me hooked. lady antebellum, nice name. :)

i had the weirdest most epic dream last night.

i dreamed that i married ahem. then it was just super weird, omg.

i now have second opinions of that person.

:x

ooh, today an overly friendly, friend, or rather, churchmate, hugged me.

"my dear sister" he called out,

i almost lol-ed.

haiy, i cant be bothered anymore. :(

i must save some money, in case of an emergency.

but, mentally, im prepared.

i hope he is too.

but anyway, it wont happen.

i hope.

please, dont let it happen,

where would i go?

xie xie ni hen duo

today was an eventful day.

whoo. i managed to survive the week. good job.

:(
pj is right, i have plenty to say, just that i cant seem to say it. im sorry. really. its not that i feel uncomfortable saying everything in front of you guys, is just that, im not ready, and i dont think i'll ever be. maybe i find it easier to confide in some other ppl, but honestly, you guys are the best thing that happened to me in xms and i wont ask for anything more. but i promise, i will let you in someday. i promise. im not ready yet, i have to make up my mind, please give me sometime. the thing is, im afraid the more "advice" or opinion ppl give me, the more confused i'll be. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so, i found my way to wonderland yesterday afternoon.

xiexie act cool for your words, haha,i felt better. like alot. and babe for sitting at the busstop with me. xie xie ni hen duo.

such a pity that its beauty was too great for my eyes.

i hope sh will make the right decision. dont worry, we'll always be there for you. :)

my time spent there was infinite.

and i will try not to be so disapproving of dua eh. haha, hw better love me.

WHAT WAS THAT FOR.
:(
idk what to think.
why you liddat.
but at least there's some progress.
i hope.

but i'll still try.

friday the 13th aint that bad huh.

i couldnt find my way out, i thought i was doomed to be living in this fantasy forvever.

WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT.

if hearts were unbreakable,
then i could just tell you where i stand
i would be the smartest man

but i figured out, it wasnt that i couldnt escape, i just didnt want to.

if i was invisble.
wait, i already am.

i like this song.

and i wouldnt mind returning there either.

I heart SG

happy 45th sg!

im proud to be witnessing every moment of this beautiful dynamic nation prospering and reaching greater heights. :)

this year's ndp was realreal nice, i wanna go next year! haha, AWESOMESAUCE.

ooh, this morning i almost died when act cool asked me if raining still need to go school.
then reply him, he also didn't reply.
then i messaged pj, she said ya where you
tehn i said are you serious
she called me
I JOKING HAHAHAHAHA

what is this. :( i almost died la.
whoo, i feel proud of my narrative assigment. ohno, auditions tmr, wo hen pa. :(
xinting hen pa. :(

oh and its red cuz of national day yeahs.

xinting xian zai hen shang xin, ta bu zhi dao gai zhen yang zuo. ta bu xiang shang xue.

ARGH. sucksucksuck. :(
i wish my nice dad would talk to me, tehn maybe i'll feel better. :(

oh, im going to see kangaroos during december. woots.

haiy, im trying. :(

:3

It is a magical point of the day when you can brush your fingertips delicately against the edges of fantasy and disbelief. When the lines between the two blur and become unclear and indistinguishable. It is when the sunlight caresses the ribbon of sliver forming ripples which slightly distort the otherwise tranquil surface of the Singapore River. Next comes the wind, or it starts out as a breeze, slowly gaining momentum, gradually metamorphosing into strong abrupt gusts of wind, taking random hits forming craggy textures on the sliver ribbon. And then, this is when you can hear the inaudible roar. An intense, deep growl which ignites and sets the hearts of all Singaporeans, with a burning flame. A dancing, vivacious spirit, and we all know, the magical point has reached a vertex, and that the Beast, has arrived.


nice anot? ivan you better draw cutecute monster for me.

your mind is the scene of crime

inception.
i want to have a job like dom cobbs. like seriously cool.
a dream within a dream.
i can create universes with a single passing thought of the mind.
kingdoms, empires, worlds
i can plant ideas into the subconsious
i can escape reality for years
i can die without actually dying.

lets see who invades my dreams tonight.

i need a totem
LOL

she makes teh hair on the back of my neck stand up

HELLO, I HAVE BRACES.
ITS TURQUOISE AND PINK.
did i spell turquoise correctly?
o.o

haiy. i hate it when its late and i cant sleep and my mind wanders off to the unlimited boundaries of my wildest imagination, of "what-ifs" "could-have-beens" "if onlys" lol, onlys. zzz.

why cant teenagers be happy ppl?
:(

im losing time. fate doesnt work on me anymore. you've given up on me i see, but as much as im so exhausted, i cant seem to give up entirely. how many times have i made up my mind, only to change it at the very last minute?

if eyes could speak,
i would have told a whole novel to you.

but its not your fault we're not on the same page.

writers dont click with ----------- do they?

oasis is my saving grace

my brother asked me

if you could have any "power" what would it be?

me: i would be a mind reader.

if only i could read your mind. i would know exactly what to do, what to say, how to react, how to feel, how to understand.

tim: what other power would you want?
me: uhh, uhh, i think... i would like to time travel.
tim: boring, just so boring.
me: .___.

yeahs, so many places i want to go to, unfortunately, have been warped and distorted by time. if i could overcome time, i would have teh world in my palms. i would be invincible. liek how this song is making my day.

even though i should sleep.
okay.

life is fragile.

and, i have no say in whatever you do.

and,i need a life.