ohmannnnnnn

This sucks ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh you hear that? That's not the sound of shattered windows and the sound of drums but the sound of my heartbreaking thanks

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Camp's tmr, I haven't packed but I'm cool. I always am HAH FUNNY. Been watching so many shows recently whoooooooooohooooooooo so excited for church camp should most prolly suit up!

No I'm serious can't get enough of all these shows damnit, I'm getting so Americanised OHWELL

LRR went to Disneyland and I think she's currently in Vegas so lucky girl and the idea of letting the universe decide kinda works #truestory. Hope kaely enjoys intensive. Wonder if David is going. Well he better be. Okay this whole post would make sense if I said it aloud okaye bye

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'LOL. SNSD THE SHOULDER COSTUME THING DROPPED. #FAIL' HAHA I laughed till I almost cried. I shall act cute and post some photos of myself. Cambodia ppl are back! Jihao is an office boy ^^ the MAMA is actually quite cool. Grammys pls come to SG.

Hey idk why can't post picture there goes my ego

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Yay!

Just chatted with LRR over whatsapp so happy right now ^^ she's in Hollywood lucky girl!

Me: eh tell me when you hear Coldplay okay!

LRR: eh I did! In a shop. Guess what song!

Me: yellow? Eh what shop?

LRR: guess. No is new song.

Me: paradise!! What shop!!

LRR: guess. As in the shop is guess.

HAHA ohmy hilarious. Take care of yourself dear!

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called out in the dark

I feel like that guy in green all the time

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lesson learnt

'you wear a knitted hat not because its cold out, but because of Coldplay' - Max, 2 broke girls

Hey! Coldplay doesn't wear beanies.. :< sian I'm stuck at home until I'm better. Church camp starts on thurs and there's choir on tues and wed, which I'm most prolly missing. Hopefully I get better and in hopeless times like this, Barney Stinson quotes come in handy. 'when I'm sick, I stop being sick and become awesome instead.' Well, that might work :p

I miss Taiwan a lot! Sigh oh sigh I'm secretly hoping my dad comes home one day and say 'pack your bags, we're flying off in 3 hours to Stralia' #fathope Aussie is succha beautiful place, gordy's going there I think. Sucks to be me now that my good friends are away, I'm sick, can't go out, nth at home, bad telly plus hungover. SUCH IS LIFE. but I'm looking forward to church camp, its gonna be legen-wait for it-DARYYYYY

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you are the best one, of the best ones.

Well, I feel so much better now. Open house was today so tiring but rewarding but my stupid nose kept running everywhere. :< did you see my socks? Super cool okay. I think its like 5cm above my ankle. #goodstudent reread ky's messages last night and I couldn't sleep partly because my best friend was feeling blue.. I'm so nice! Anyhoo, ky did make a lot of sense, just that I was too drunk in my thoughts I didn't bother to understand them. But now I'm feeling so much better thank you so much ky! I hope you put on the keychain :p I guess we live through experiences.. good or bad. Somethings can't be learnt through movies or stories but have to be lived through perhaps we became stronger. I would like to think so. Difficult as it is, maybe this is smth we'll all have to go through. Thanks Xiaoting, LRR, gordy, ky, kaely, nao, and ofc bryan.

'Stop breathing, if I don't see you anymore'

Such a nice song.

LRR and Kenneth flying off tonight sigh........... All my haopengyou all gone sniff.

And I'm sick :'(

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peace

I dreamt of the wake last night. I dreamt that kaely, David and I went to the wake again and I didn't want to go in, so kaely went in with David. Then she said that you were moving and David went in too and said you were coughing. Then I saw you moving and coughing and saying smth I couldn't hear then we told everyone and everyone came.. and I couldn't rmb what happened. I couldn't sleep last night but I was so exhausted. But I fell asleep anyway. It's just that so many things have happened recently and I'm so tired. Just got back from Taiwan and there was Grad Night the next day.. enjoyed myself though.. and then choir the next morning and later that night, news of your passing. And the next morning which was ytd, we went to school and last night we went to your wake. And tonight I'm meeting up with Miss Ee and I'm prolly gonna tell her about the wake. And there's open house tmr..and on Monday there's choir. And a concert at night and then choir on Tuesday and the choral exchange on Wed. How are we supposed to carry on with choir? And I'm still hungover from Taiwan. I rather fall sick sigh. The only time I'm familiar with funerals is in shows and movies. It would always rain and the mourners will wear black and carry black umbrellas. And the mortician will shove soil on the coffin and this young kid will put a daisy at the grave or smth like that. But even so, they were all actors.. they were very much alive. Except that you were not. It wasn't a movie it show, its for real. And it feels strange and untrue and sad.

Kenneth said that he dreamt of you too. That you spoke to him and you wore a white gown and you looked beautiful. Maybe it really is you. Then I'm really happy for you. I wouldn't mind if you spoke to me in a dream too, just to see you alright and at peace. Yes, that would be nice.

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bryan

Don't know if you'll see this now but thanks for talking to me sigh feeling so blue but I'll get over it. Enjoy your time in school tmr alright! See you at open house :)

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tears in heaven

I didn't expect myself to tear up. Perhaps it finally hit me when I saw you lying in there. You looked so pretty and peaceful. I was afraid of looking at you initially. That little window... But I did and I half expected you to open your eyes. Your skin was flawless.. smooth and life. However the mortician did a shabby job with your lips. There was still specks of lipstick marks. But you looked beautiful. And happy. And at peace. I couldn't look at you for that long.. even now, I still can't accept that you're called back to the Lord. We sang In Dulci for you. I looked at your photo, but I couldn't handle it so I looked at Mr Yong instead.. but he looked like he was going to cry. So I looked at the ground.. could you hear us? It was when we sang As Long As I Have Music that I lost it. You taught us how to love music and singing, now who's going to do that for us? Choir feels empty now.. lost with no direction. What do we do now? What's going to happen to us? You've been there for us for so long, how can we go on without you? Throughout the service your relatives/friends/churchmates were praying for you. I was too. And I thought of how this was the first wake I ever attended and I think I'm gonna sound like a total wuss, but I'm afraid of attending funerals/wakes now.. She said you were in a happier place, I know you are. Will you rmb us? I think we all will. We definitely will.. I miss you and I will continue to pray for you. Mdm Ang, I can't believe you're gone.. your dad and brother are so brave.. just like you are. I will keep your family in prayer especially your children. Bless your soul.

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therapeutic chain of events

Except that it isn't. I'm usually pretty emotional and all that.. but somehow all I can feel and think about is how her children will cope with this tragedy. And questions of death are circling my mind.. death is this close to everyone just that we neglect or rather, refuse to acknowledge his presence. Wait.. why is death a 'he'? Oh well, can you imagine all the pain her children are experiencing? It's so...sad and uncalled for. Sigh so many things ongoing and overlapping simultaneously I feel like my brain is gonna blow.

God Bless your soul, Mrs Yeap. The lessons you taught us we will never forget. Your legacy will burn brightly.

And I say this once again, gone too soon.

Winter casts its cloak on light

Smother the flames, of hope, of life

Ashes slur the last embrace

Scatter apologies on her grave

Wounded soldiers we sigh like the moon,

Darling, you have gone too soon.

I don't know if that made sense but Mrs Yeap, that's for you.

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supermassive hangover

hah look! i've combined two songs to form my blogpost title! genius hehe supermassive blackhole- muse and hangover- taio cruz anyhoo, that pretty much sums up my state of mind. im missing Taiwan so much! Met Kenneth in choir today and he shared my exact sentiments. sigh...duck. everytime something awesome happens and ends, the hangover that follows is so depressing.
anyhoo, i shall talk about my trip.

Day 1,
Arrived in Taiwan pretty late, was pleasantly surprised by the weather, i was expecting it to be super cold but it was more of cooling. to be honest, i was shocked by the buildings scattered along the streets, they looked so rundown and old, so different from what i was expecting, like in most Taiwan Idol Dramas, the houses and buildings are pretty modern, alot like SG so yeah, unexpected. We then proceeded to our first night market in Taiwan. The first major difference that hit me was the amazing culture and

hey, just heard some really shocking news...so yeah.. goodnight everyone.

overload

wah dai so many things going on at the same time, i cant keep up im just gonna sleep.
i miss taiwan alot but i guess grad night is helping me with my hangover. grad night was great! the helium balloons are the silliest funniest things on earth! okay i shall blog about my Taiwan trip tmr, so tired right now im going to have to sleep. i'll def miss Tosy, Evelyn, Huixin, Peixuan and Sonia when they leave for Cambodia tmr :( till tmr, goodnight, fyi i cant get my eyeliner out, i looked boxed in the eye @_@

Kenneth's laughter

We watched the season pull up its own stakes

And catch the last weekend of the last week

Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced

Another sunsoaked season fades away

It's the last day of Taiwan and obviously no one wants to go home.

Anyhoo, I'm so excited to open my Coldplay record and I hope my mum likes her present. I fell through with solutions and came across a revelation, I want to be a sailor when I'm older, the sea is the most majestic creature on earth. Kthxbai grad night tmr!

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Seoul garden in Taiwan?!

Hello there's WiFi everywhere in Taiwan talk about being connected all the time. Wow I'm so full right now we just had buffet lunch and wow you have a Seoul garden in Taiwan!

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bryan

I think I really hate bryan. But he's so awesome that I can't stand it. Btw this is random cuz I can't stand bryan's awesomeness. K thanks. :)

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day two

Hello its day 2 of Taiwan. However it alr seems like a few days prolly because we've been spending a lot of time out. This morning we went to gu guan bo Wu yuan. It was sian ttm. I nearly fell asleep. It's supposed to be a secret but nvm I'm telling only you this. I learnt that we tend to neglect the richest culture in the world by giving up on the language itself. In addition I've learnt that artisans and painters infuse different motifs and colours into their work as the country progresses into differnt dynasties. Btw rr typed that

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Taiwan

Hello I'm blogging from Taiwan its pretty cooling in here. I haven't got my auto roam so that's a problem but other than that I'm fine :)

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farewell

Oh hello, I'll be leaving for Taiwan first thing tmr morning. For ten days, will be back just in time for grad night! Woah so sudden don't feel prepared at all. But I'm pretty sure it'll be fun.

Okay I admit its like having wedding jitters. Like how Barney puts it 'yeah sure this tie is skinny now but what if it gets fat and starts bossing me around?' Okay I exaggerate, the comparison is barely there. But still. I'm going to try to forget about flying off tmr and get some sleep. But on second thoughts, its X Factor results night and I'M DYING TO KNOW WHICH ACT LEAVES so maybe not.

Alright goodbye everyone, take care watch the X Factor for me. :)

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10 things you didn't know about me

Hello fellow lonely minds in front of computer screens (just kidding) I haven't had a proper blog post in a while so I kinda stumbled upon inspiration. I was thinking of Glee and rmbed that the Glee cast actually did an interview called 10 things you didn't know about me, so there you go! The 10 things you didn't know about me! :) (in no particular order)

1) I have a huge fetish for drummer boys

Really, doesn't matter how old they are, once they take to the drums they are mesmerizing.. there's just something about the way they whack those drums when they're so in the 'zone'. Really. Drummer boys are whooooooo

2) I am terrified of blood and down riding escalators. Blood makes me disintegrate. I'm serious. Especially blood from the mouth. There was one time last year when I fell from a flying fox and cut my lip, it hurt of course but I cried on seeing the blood. There was another time when my finger got slammed between the choir room door and it was bleeding and I just couldn't help but cry ohmann. I'm not exactly terrified of down riding escalators though, I just take a really really long time to step on and I usually hold up the line, not very civil of me :l haha ppl who have gone out with me would say 'true story'.

3) I don't text with much emoticons. Haha I feel emoticons are really insincere, so generated and impersonal. The only time I use emoticons are when I think I sound too rude or cold. So adding emoticons soften the tone I guess?

4) I want to be a travelling musician/writer.

I play the violin (its called Brentz) and I would love to be a travelling musician surviving on what little earnings have and discovering the world. I honestly wouldn't mind being broke most of the time, its the passion that motivates. And I love writing. What I meant was that I would want to be a writer not a travelling writer (does that make sense?) Haha writing is a form of release for me I'm currently stuck in my mortician story desperately in need for ideas (anyone?) Yes and it would be a dream come true if I really made it as one.

5) I keep a diary.

Yes, those traditional pen and paper kind. I know, I'm living in the dark ages. Haha it just happens that my mind goes to countless of places and sometimes they overlap, making things hazy and extremely hard and so writing everything down makes things clearer I guess. So far, I hope had laid eyes on it. The things in there may send me to Guatemala. HAH kidding.......

6) I can do a neat Brit accent.

No kidding, just ask me next time :p

7) I'm not a fan of current love songs.

Love songs are really shallow and meaningless. The amount of emotion is never appropriate. Songs from Taylor Swift and supposedly 'hood's love songs are horrid. Only a few make the cut. My personal favourites are Yellow- Coldplay, I Don't Want to Miss a Thing- Aerosmith, True- Ryan Canberra, Total Eclipse of the Heart.. just to name a few. Real substance in there!

8) I believe in God.

I'm a Christian and everyday I strive to follow Him. :)

9) I love airports.

I once spent my whole afternoon walking around Terminal 3 just to sort out my thinking and it was enriching. I love airports really. The sense of new possibilities and heaviness of farewells and 'welcome homes' are therapy for me.

10) I think soulmates do exist.

They do, I know. If you ever find one don't ever let them go.

Well, so that's 10 things you didn't know about me! :)

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this guy is brilliant.

The sleeping pills tasted bitter. I swallowed them. Wherever I woke up, I hoped it would be better than the hell of living without you. @VeryShortStory

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rory

have i mentioned? rory is the cutest irish kid ever!!!!!!!! glee is fascinating. not gonna lie. :)

mercenary

my hand waves hello. tragedy strikes once again. my wildfire s decided to be unresponsive so i had to sent it away for repair. thats whatchu get for dying on me!! :< anyhoo, found out that hmv in 313 DOES NOT HAVE THE VINYL VERSION OF MYLO XYLOTO. simply atrocious! but. but. they have this box labelled Panic! At the Disco live concert. HAH xmas is coming. #justsayin HAH FUNNY.

angels and demons by dan brown is really mind blowing. terrifying yet magnificent.

Love is this?

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles that are made in China?
Feel the bright prosaic malls
Through the corridors that go on and on and on

I was blind - didn't see
What was here in me
I was lost - insecure
Felt like the road was way too long, yeah
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that we're feeling again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again

Will those feet in modern times
Understand this righteous anger
Recognise this world's addiction
Understand this world's affliction?

I was blind - didn't see
What was here in me
I was lost - insecure
I felt like the road was way too long, yeah
Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again, again, again, again

Cause love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Come on, come on, ah come on, ah come on
Now come on, now come on, now come on
Now come on

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles made in China?
Will those feet in modern times
See the bright prosaic malls?
Will those feet in modern times
Forgive me all my sins
Love is noise
Come on

Bryan

You suck. I'm not gonna lie.
HAH kidding you don't la. But I'm still angry for you lying to me and whacking your electric on my face 3 times. I'll have my revenge one day you watch out. Sigh I still feel blue sometimes when I think about it but the times are getting lesser so its a good thing I guess? And you need to eat with a mirror pls. It's not a pretty sight when stuff gets onto your lips. #seriously I could try looking forward to Taiwan. TRY. okay go study Chinese! :p