Don't rain on my parade.

So, the past week's been pretty hectic. But on the bright side, I'm left with 5 papers (3 subjects). Go go go baby! I found out that Rachel (from Glee) screwed up her NYADA audition and I know its stupid but this is starting to have an adverse effect on me. I'm starting to rethink everyth I have so recently planned out. Foolproof? Far from that. The importance of 'realising my dreams' (as corny as it sounds) is starting to sink in and I can feel this burden on my skin. I want so so so badly to leave this place. I feel so suffocated, deprived and in desperate need of smth new. What if, like Rachel, I screw up at the most crucial point? I cannot take the risk. I cannot lose sight of my footing. This deserves more than what I can offer.
God I'm sounding pretty retarded now. But motivation is better than none right? So I will be fearless, no matter how tragic I am, come what may, come what may, I will love you till my dying day.