Aye. Cmon Kris, get yourself tgt. Cmon cmon.

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revelations

Greetings lonely minds! The Olympics have finally commenced its pretty exciting I'm just wondering if they had a say.. Arts Olympic that'll be an event I'll be dying to catch. Anyway today during Churchies, I did an impromtu skit with Bel, Tabby and Marcus. So I was the kid who wanted to go to a Bieber concert and my mum (Tabby) didn't allow me to go, considering that my O's were nearing. And Belicia was the sensible friend that didn't think I should go while Marcus was my fellow Belieber. It was all very hilarious, (we sang/danced Boyfriend halfway) and Tabby made a very convincing mum and Belicia was just being Belicia, hatin' on Biebster and all (which is kinda ironic since she went to ATL's concert a day before her Amath and SS paper). But the point is, I think........... I'll give Snow P's concert a miss. I'll prolly get post concert depression and have no mood to study and maybe become suicidal. I figured that if I don't go, I'll prolly be depressed too, but not as much as if I went to the concert. So I guess this is God's way of telling me not to go for Snow P's concert. Hm after all, what is missing a Snow Patrol concert in the light of eternity? Well I guess at least there's the Olympics to look forward to.
To be honest, I find myself being incompetent in many aspects. Not going to elaborate but it is evident and I know it. Of course, I am aware of my flaws. Is this what you call being insecure? Afraid so. Never been one to succumb to my inner demons but these days it gets so hard. I am no longer as sad as I used to be but then again when you're sad for long periods of time, being sad becomes a normalacy and you're so used to being sad it runs in your blood you feel normal when you're sad. But I believe I am happier. Of course I would be, what's there to feel sad about? It's not even 7 and the moon alr seems scarcely grazed onto the sky. Aye.

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nothin good happens after 2am

During egeog lessons, there isn't a limit for the number of stupid things that happen. And by stupid I mean really hilarious haha especially today! The O's opening ceremony is starting in say.. 5 hours, (olympics, not o levels) as I am sprawled upon my ever reliant bed, I'm starting to have doubts about waking up at 4am on a perfectly moulded weekend to watch a 3-4 mins (or maybe even second) appearance/performance of Coldplay, which may or may not happen IS A REALLY BAD IDEA. its the classic example of something Future Kristie will regret, which happens all the time. After all, nothing good happens after 2am. on a sidenote, I find myself thinking less about life which is the worst thing that could happen to me because once you stop thinking, you take everything else as it is, take everything else for granted. But I'm so exhausted and drained all the time all my brain cells are too konked out to do some deep philosophical musings (like I used to HAHA) yes, I am so so tired lately, everyday feels like a chore but I should shoot myself for saying that because everyday is a gift I should be grateful for every single day. Okaye scratch that. I wished sleep actually replenishes my weary mind/soul/body. Seems like sleep or no sleep doesn't exactly give me rest. I need rest, not sleep. Oh well. On a brighter note, O's opening ceremony encore telecast tmr evening, joy!

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the condensation, is building tension

Today was a horrid day but it was productive though. I see how productiveness is related to how my day went. Anyway I'm so tired nowadays idk why I WANNA BE DRUNK WHEN I WAKE UP, ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE WRONG BED imagine my shock 'who am I where am I what year issit' LOL I'm kinda stoked for the Olympics, basically cuz of the opening ceremony where all the lovely Brit bands would be playing pride and I GET TO SEE MY COLDPLAY and hopefully Snow P. Every day is a routine though, I need a break from routine but not like I can afford it. So I guess I'll have to slog it out. I wished sleep could replenish whatever energy and fury flames of a mugger but it doesn't the flames are extinguished and extinct, gone forever just like time. And I haven't been writing for ages yknow I really don't know if I'm a good/bad writer cuz no other writers critique my work. What if I completely suck as a writer and yet I continue to bask in my glorious oblivion omg BUT I SHALL JUST DO THAT let my mind deceive me. Yknow the heart is such a daft creature it always gets manipulated by the devious cunning mind. But there are exceptions though. Ah, come what may, gotta stick with routine no matter how sick it makes me. The only thing that's keeping me going is 'I promise you, all this would be worthed smth one day.' Press on! Persevere and conquer. Goodnight all.

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I don't geddit.

So today I overslept and missed church. Oh mann I haven't missed church in awhile so I do feel kinda bad now. Anyhoo. I can't comprehend how presenting yourself to be having a greater time will make you the self declared champion of what's left of your dignity. I'm being very vague here but that's the whole point. Don't really see why one should go to the extreme just to prove his/her point when yknow whoever you're trying to subjugate clearly cannot be bothered by your childish manner. Why not just accept it and learn and repent and move on? By swallowing what's left of your pride, you stand to gain more respect. Honestly what's with some ppl? So self focused and egoistical it makes me sick just thinking about it. The only good thing is that the person you're inflicting harm is, is yourself. Actually that's not a good thing. But this nature and behaviour is atrocious and almost laughable. Lacking in maturity I see. Only proved your point that his decision was right.
Sorry for the rant but I cannot take this lying down.

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signal fire

WHAT HAVE I BEEN MISSING OUT ALL THESE WHILE WHY DIDN'T I HEED RR'S ADVICE ALMOST A YEAR AGO WHEN SHE FIRST TRIED TO PSYCHO ME INTO LISTENING TO DEATH CAB AHHHHHH and they are brilliant. I will possess your heart is like my study anthem. 4 minutes of instrumental and another 4 minutes of self triumphant declaration. It's honestly the most hypnotic song I have ever come across my favourite line is 'Its like a book elegantly bound/ But in a language that you can't read.' It's in my opinion the best. Best song to listen to when you're on your journey to what you desire. In a way the lover's situation is tragic but he is so uplifting you cannot deny that. But then again not everyone can identify with the song. It requires a slight bitterness and yet fully conceding soul to make sense of Death Cab's genius. Gosh. It's so so good. Almost on par, (if not better) than The Scientist. Yknow I am inclined towards more heartwrenching songs eg The Scientist, New York, Set the Fire to the Third Bar but THIS. THIS 8MINS WORTH OF GOODNESS IS ABOUT TO CHANGE EVERYTHING. it is so positively heartbreaking yet it makes me feel invincible very very invincible. THIS SHALL BE MY ANTHEM. I WILL POSSESS YOUR HEART.
Next, I will follow you into the dark. It's a pretty happy sweet song about death. It's quite deep/quirky too. 'fear is the heart of love' I have no idea what it means. but I'll figure it out soon enough. Gosh. I must find out more about this Death Cab. They performed in sg on my bday SO MAYBE THIS BAND AND I, ARE INTERWEAVED, THAT I FIND COMFORT AND JOY OF KNOWING IN THEIR SONGS. tonight i go to bed triumphant and satisfied and tmr I shall awake invincible. Peace out.
Ps I sound very over the top with the peace out but DEAL WITH IT HAHA

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like a rhi-, like a rhino!!

the week's been pretty eventful with Invest'12 ans Racial Harmony Day today kinda having mixed feelings regarding Invest but not intense enough for my mind to go 'overcapacity'. Anyhoo, Joshua finally posted the Church Camp pictures and these are the photos that will pop up and ruin my reputation 10 years later when I'm famous because.....just because. SO ANYWAY I NO I SOUND LIKE A HUGE WIMP BUT I AM TORN. Guess I can say goodbye to my NYADA dream but I need to move on with life. ITS GETTING LATE I SHOULD SLEEP goodnight, p.s i look Korean maybe i should become a Korean star instead. Get a Korean name and dominate the world

dreaming is gonna make you mad

ONEREPUBLIC'S NEW SINGLE IS OUT AHHH THE KILLER'S NEW SINGLE TMR AHHHHH SNOW PATROL'S EARLY BIRD TICKETS SOLD OUT AHHHHH YELLOWCARD IS COMING TO SINGAPORE AHHHH okaye. I know I'll sound extremely whiny and spoilt but I can't help it. This may sound like an exaggeration but it kills me. It kills me that Snow P will be performing in SG a few days before my prelims and its highly likely that I can't attend their concert. It's this sinking sickening feeling somewhere within the blackhole of my deprived soul. Knowing for certain that they are so close, yet so far. Knowing that I could have the craziest night ever basking amongst fellow fans which feel like family soaking in every broken emotionally drenched syllable uttered/snarled/whispered by Gary Lightbody and yet I can't. This is terrifying, I have been fantasizing about attending the concert and each little insignificant thought tears/rips my heart to shreds. I am not exaggerating I feel so wretched pls I don't need to be reminded so pls don't. It's gnawing at the back of my lonely mind. Regret, I know I will, afflicted from my head to my toes, i will suffer relentlessly. The only hope I have is winning a pair of tickets, which of course, I will go all out at all costs. This post is an official declaration. I am a music fan, it is pure torture to miss out on one of my favorite bands. This is an official declaration. This is an open letter to Snow P. I will make this work.
Okaye I feel better but the ache is still throbbing. Anyhoo, war movies/scenes really do mess me up. But guys are guys, Mr Daniel will prolly still screen them in class I guess some sort of exposure is healthy. The scenes are so charged with emotions and I get carried away and it messes me up pretty badly. Esp with the blood and esp the faces of ppl when they realise that someone they know has been shot. Oh mann. War should never happen. How much more of humanity do we want to lose? And by humanity I don't mean ppl but the very foundational aspect of what makes us human. okaye this is a pretty charged post annnnnnnnnnnd. I think I should really stop hoping too much. The chances are almost non-existent, so its alright I guess. Well, gotta count on my results then. Goodnight everyone, sleep tight, travel well.

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tell me you've noticed, tell me you've heard

GREETINGS LONELY MINDS i apologize deeply for not blogging for ages, i've deleted teh blogger app from my phone, its having some issues so bear with me. not feeling too good right now, i feel so so sick and I'll i want to crawl into my bed so badly. BUT PERSEVERE HAH AND I DONT WANT THE WORLD TO SEEEE MEEEEE, CUZ I DONT THINK THAT THEY'D UNDERSTANNNNND, WHEN EVERYTHING'S MADE TO BE BROKEN, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW WHO I AM. recently i started liking Mumm Ra but guess what, they've disbanded, haha im so unlucky sigh BUT HOWEVER the Killer's new album Battle Born is coming out in a matter of days FANGIRL SCREAAAAAAAM currently i have no idea who else is into the Killers, i mean honestly they're far from indie, they're ALT ROCK and they are HUGE in America, why no fan bases in SG? I'm done reading 'How To Be A Famous Novelist' i must say, the idea of writing for money is tempting, but that would be despicable and i should be stoned alive. But it did change a little of the way i view things AND I FOUND THIS WICKED VERSION OF 'CRAZY IN LOVE' BY SNOW P AHHHHHH SAY GOODBYE TO SLEEP