i suck at life

supposed to start on my photo assignment today but I'm doing that tmr god I really suck. Anyhoo my thoughts are getting very isolated lately, how seamlessly my mind flickers on and off I wonder if there's a switch hidden amongst the folds of my gray matter. Up till now I have no idea if its spelled 'grey' or 'gray' I guess I'll always prefer 'gray' I've been feeling too many things lately and it isn't doing myself any good. Yet I do crave thoughts thoughts so crumpled and shattering that they give my heart tremors and shivers.