flying off again tmr and is there an adj for feeling so excited and nervous that i feel like puking?? I'm honestly so scared mann idk what to expect i don't even think i can sleep tonight had a really great christmas tho i think i gained 5kg but IM TRYNA JUSTIFY MY ACTIONS BY DELUDING MYSELF THAT CAMBODIA PROLLY ONLY HAS GREENS SO I SHOULD PILE UP B4 I GO merry merry christmas everyone haps bday jesus thanks for what you've done

(this marks the third christmas I've yet to finish 1Q84 hahaha lol i suck i rmb thinking that i'll probably need 2 months but no its been 3 years and I'm not even halfway though)

(also idk what to do with all these fancy i have for you)

(or if its even real)