thoughts

Just a random thought: all these fancy is prolly a result of my loneliness coupled with delusion and I've come to realise as much as I want to convince myself and others it is just completely pointless and I just have to force myself to stop pining for person I fancy. just watched himym and it's such a great episode and I realise I stagger across extremities. On one hand couples disgust me on the other every day that passes, I am a day closer to meeting future soulmate and I can't wait for that I'm more excited for our intervention than graduating or studying lit in uni or migrating to Taiwan and getting my first dog I can't wait to meet you and you could be living halfway across the world or you could be living just across the street and I'll never know but I know you'll feel like an adventure and I just wanna go on adventures with you. What is this? I detest romance yet I'm a closeted romantic is this even categorized under 'romance'? This anticipation towards meeting future soulmate? Or am I just looking forward to meeting someone that makes me feel so alive that complements me, not completes me, that makes me tenfold of what I am now? Would this anticipation make me a romantic? Mann I have no idea I wonder where you are right now or what you're doing I wonder if you're in love with anyone right now and I wonder if you're wondering if I exist. If you have any dogs (cats are fine too) if you create embarrassing playlists if you play the air drums, air guitar, air piano AND sing when you're in public I wonder if you long to leave sg as much as I do (assuming you live in sg) (or perhaps you love it here) I wonder if your favourite breakfast is pancakes I wonder if you read or sing or dance or do sports or if you have sisters or brothers or maybe you don't I wonder what you define a 'good book' or your list of 'films that almost, almost made me cry' or if you write letters to yourself and if you're as goofy as I am (or more so or maybe you're really shy) and I can only wonder and look forward but of course you may or may not exist and I don't think I want to find out time will tell and time is no healer but time will always tell