jude

felt like i did nothing and everything this weekend

Sat:
ventured into the east with my cousins while pedalling with all my might and strength to the very end of the road. for a moment i felt like i was *living in a seaside town where we all travel on bikes and wear shorts with tanks and slippers* am i that desperate for any form of escapism? but what a chill day i had such a great time im so glad we are so close. OH YES while we were cycling on the jetty there were ppl fishing and then omg i just feel like puking when i see dead animals idk mann its not like i haven't seen a dead fish i have many times and even touched dead fish aka the ones you get from the grocer but LIKE animals you dont want dead AND THEY END UP DYING BECAUSE OF HUMANS AND ITS NOT EVEN FOR COMMERCIAL OR ECONOMICAL MOTIVES BUT FOR LEISURE OR ACCIDENTAL or just dead animals in the presence of... ME sorry i am incompetent cannot think of a category broad and specific enough but just dead animals in general i get very uncomfortable when i see them and slightly sad especially if there are flies/scavengers feeding on it omg like that cannibalistic act at the Aquarium it messed me up ok i still rmb how the murder scene looked like anyway i want a bike its so great having a bike i feel so carefree and i can continue my 'riding my bike in a small town' delusions lol

Sun:
today is my dad's bday!!! my dad is 52 this year but he looks so young AND THIS IS THE MOST I'VE SPENT ON ANYONE THIS YEAR AND ITS ON FOOD HAHAHAH but i always get my dad shitty gifts so its time i step up my game i actually get pretty great gifts LOL but i always have no idea what to get my dad cuz he has everyth so my mum and i split dinner HAHA anyway my dad is actually very lame i think i got my lameness from him seriously he is so lame he is cool yknow you can exceed the threshold and then suddenly become cool it has happened to me LULZ yeah i am incredibly lame but my mum is hardly goofy so its good to have someone like my dad to goof around with but he can be so fierce sometimes too :'( but thats only when i screw up la my dad has definitely influenced me in many ways in fact i think im more like him than my mum?? i think the only notable difference between us is his dining etiquette he eats pizza with a knife and fork (i just stuff it whole in my mouth ;) lol jk) and how he is a man of MATH!!! SCIENCE!!!! i... meh cmi la

sang yak fai lok ba :) :)