grange not grunge

Went to support my best friend in the entire world and I'm so extremely proud of you 

RR and I visited this mysterious house on 7 Grange Road and it's dilapidated and rundown but the gate was opened wide so we just went in yoloswag HAHA at first she didn't want to but IT'S ADVENTURE TIME SO WHATEVS COME WHAT MAYYYY

photos aren't in order we went to Taiwan look!!!!

Oh pretty string

RR destroyer of all things beautiful 

Visited sherl HAHA she's so cute

the moment I scared Kenneth when I had my hand on the handle LOL what a loser he screamed 

Facepalm

am I hipster enough????

You go gurl

I TOOK THIS!!! 

tcp2013

learnt so much throughout these 2 and a half days when will I stop overrating myself and my issues when compared to the entire world are really insignificant and minuscule there are ppl with real problems I should really stop and focus on what I have it's not easy but I'll try and I won't stop until I do. Just like how I said I would get a selfie with raspberry cheeks and I did in the same way I can do this

When dreams become reality <3 <3 

sigh this is like slutty pumpkin and red checkered shirt all over again except this time it's raspberry cheeks sigh sigh sigh I'll prolly never see you again sigh this is so shallow sighhhh

HAPHAZARD THOUGHTS OF THE DAY

1) met a real life Agnes from DM today except she was Asian oh my she was so adorable what a sweet polite little kid I wanted to pinch her cheeks and pat her head 

2) saw my ex colleague while working today LOL hi michole!! 

3) science experiment of the day: sunny and I threw the ice cream bits at the bottom of the bowl into the beaker filled with nitro it was quite lame I was expecting like a reaction of some sort but no so we poured the leftover of the icecream base into the beaker and the liquid droplets kinda hardened up in the nitro 

4) Tom freaking Odell is in Singapore right now my baby sigh he's gon be performing at tab tmr night so pls support him you will fall in love with his blonde locks and raspy reedy yet thoroughly soulful voice and you will gaze at his beautiful face and go 'what a babe' yes he is. AHHHHH TOM I WILL WAIT

5) my mum just told me that dad is going to NYC at the end of next month WHAT TO HECK?!?!?!?! I begged him to take me with him I just need to find somebody I know who's gon be in NYC the same as him then maybe I can tag along OH MY GOD NEW FREAKING YORK it's gonna be my dream come true I really really really pray and hope I'll be able to tag along it's a work trip though DAMMIT I WISHED I HAD INTERNET FRIENDS

10 things part 2 aka pros and cons of being kristie

supposed to pack for camp but I'm being lazy and procrastinating noticed that recently everyone is doing a 20 things on insta and I vaguely rmb doing a 10 things one on my blog a few years ago so here are ten more things about yours truly

1) my dad wanted to name me Sarah. Do I look like a Sarah??? Ppl have often told me I look very much like my name (spelling included) and I quite like my name at least it isn't pretentious or embarrassing like I know this young SINGAPOREAN CHINESE couple who named their second daughter.... Je t'aime  LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Pls do not give your kid a French name if you have no relation to France or have French blood in you poor child I alr thought of a name for my future kid (if I have any) Kieran/Kiera or Keiran/Keira I just googled Keiran/Kieran and it means black LOL was hoping for a deeper more meaningful backstory but whatevs maybe I'll just name my kid Stacey since it's gender ambiguous I actually quite like Jesse too

2) if i could date any cartoon character i would definitely date Finn the Human #no h8 or Hiccup but I still stand by Finn cuz he's just so carefree and genuine all the time and even though he tends to trivialise serious stuff I actually like it when ppl inject lightheartedness into the weight of the world but when its time to be serious he's actually serious too

3) am currently obsessed with Harry Potter I WANNA GO HOGWARTS SO BADLY when I was in P4/P5 I was very silly and dumb haha I created this 'show' where I was the main character who led a double life as this ninja superhero warrior with magical powers in another world which could be entered through a portal and in this world it was kinda Medieval but with other elements and I even created a plotline for this character of mine and every night before I slept I would just conjure up the lines and scripts and other characters for this show AND I NAMED MY CHARACTER KAYDER LOL kayther do you know why cuz of Avril Lavinge hahaha yes, 'He was a skater boy, she said you later boy' I WAS VERY INTO AVRIL LAVINGE (thats another point) but Skater rhymes with Kayder/Kayther so yeah YOU SEE I AM SO LAME and at that time I read the Inkheart trilogy and so it kinda influenced me BUT YES BACK TO HP I AM A PROUD RAVENCLAW AND AM CURRENTLY READING BOOK 4 OMGGG Ron is extremely adorable and so is Malfoy

4) I used to have an Avril Lavinge phase when I was younger like up till now I can rmb almost every lyric esp her older songs but she disappeared for awhile and I progressed to sad alternative rock and I kinda stayed there ever since. George used to lend me Avril Lavinge CDs and I would download them into my iPod and listen to them while waiting for tuition to start haha memories

5) i am the most indecisive person I know. Especially when it comes to making important life decisions one example would be choosing between JC and Poly. My head literally went from jc ->poly-> jc -> poly -> jc-> poly. Also another example would be choosing what to wear or what to watch I will literally switch shows even when I'm halfway through the episode

6) i get very emotional when it comes to movies/books or even events that are happening to other ppl and i cry very easily when my close friends are being shortchanged/or when bad stuff happens to them but when it comes to myself i find it extremely difficult to express my own feelings, sometimes I come across as a little unresponsive or I give the wrong kind of responses and it takes a pretty long time for me to find the proper words to accurately describe how i feel and usually by the time I get there its too late and oftentimes idk what im saying and this impairment has caused much trouble and pain for me

7) i hate monotony. Even though I take some time to adapt to change I would gladly pick change over being stuck in the same situation. after the charm and allure has faded it drains my soul dry and I need to find smth different. i guess its like you learn smth new or develop from every situation you are placed in and once that goal is reached its time to look for a new one?? its different from getting bored of things though.

8) i love the sea. almost as much as i love words. i love everyth and anyth sea related, anchors, ships, sand, nets, salt and being a sailor is one of my career choices ITS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FEROCIOUS CREATURE ON EARTH how can I stand here and not be moved by you? MAYBE WHEN IM RICH AND FAMOUS I'LL BUY A YACHT AND I'LL LIVE THERE AND I'LL BE THE HAPPIEST GIRL EVER AND I CAN FINALLY WEAR MY SPERRYs CUZ I'LL BE RICH AND I'LL BE ABLE TO AFFORD SPERRYs AND ITS GON BE AWESOME I CAN TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD IF I GET A SHIP AND MEET PPL AND INVITE THEM UP AND HAVE SEAFOOD DINNER ON THE DECK AND THEN I'LL PLAY MUSIC AND WE CAN SLOW DANCE AND I'LL APOLOGIZE FOR STEPPING ON YOUR TOES BUT YOU'LL LAUGH IT OFF AND WE'LL BOTH END UP DOING THE CHICKEN DANCE CUZ I CANNOT DANCE FOR NUTS AND YOU ARE A BRILLIANT DANCER BUT YOU FELT THAT THE CHICKEN DANCE WOULD BE APPROPRIATE

9) i am very impulsive sometimes i do things w/o much thought and my actions are often fuelled by my emotions or level of excitement and most times it leads to disastrous results but recently its been yielding pretty good results and experiences but i really need to manage this impulsivity of mine

10) i am very lame and i like to play this game called 007 or Stealth Mode in public areas with my friends. how it goes is you isolate one friend and go into hiding while giving that friend clues on where to find you within a time frame and of course you're able to move around and change hiding places but not too much cuz thats unfair and its funny cuz you can spy on your friend walking around looking for you and they are so clueless hahahaha its so lame i am so lame but whatevs, 'embrace the loser within' that's my life motto gotta love yourself and have fun dont take everyth too seriously and give yourself a break

extra bit) i tend to project my life based on sitcoms or shows which is actually quite unhealthy but for some reason it makes me feel better so imma continue doing it LOL

you can find part one here: http://three-random-words.blogspot.sg/2011/11/10-things-you-didn-know-about-me.html

AH SHOOOT TOM FREAKING ODELL IS COMING TO SG ON 28TH AUG I HAVE CAMP BLOODY HELL I WANT TO CRY I AM HEARTBROKEN I REALLY AM BUT HE WILL COME BACK ONE DAY BUT I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :(((((

I am so tired I don't wanna move and my big toe hurts so much pls friends and stalkers (like I wish I had them) pls visit me at work at ion B4 the coolest ice cream shop with nitrogen and lab coats ok pls and thank you I should play with Tom more often and I DREAMT THAT I HAD A PUPPY CORGI LAST NIGHT and for some reason I named it Nicky?? WHY WOULD I GIVE A DOG A HUMAN NAME

Just casually stalking myself on FB and wahlao I was super gay no wonder everyone said I was gay just look at my lame smile!!!!!! omg AND I WORE SO MANY GIRLY DRESSES with flowers and ribbons dusted to maximum girliness top off with floral printed tube dresses that (clung on to the wrong places) with pink and pastel plaids AND I EVEN HAD A LACY DRESS THAT KINDA RESEMBLES A NIGHTGOWN NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT and you should see my accessories LOL i hardly wear them now I have ribbons A LOT OF RIBBONS and cutesy pig hairbands and sheep and giraffes and I cannot imagine myself being like that again WHY W H Y it was a pretty long phase though like from the end of P6 to like starting of Sec 3??? LUCKY I GOT OUT OF IT YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME IN THAT MANY BOWS AND RIBBONS EVER AGAIN unless they are vintage then its an exception

had a very strange experience today I wonder how will the rest of it go this is like Marshal's first day and GNB oh well better awake my inner Max

Feel like i should care sometimes but really why are we letting ourselves get shortchanged time after time? Are we all so needy and desperate for some sort of validation that will never come? Validation from someone who wouldn't do half the things you do for them? It makes you feel so underserving yet they have no obligation to. Its not like they are undeserving of you either its just that sometimes our efforts will never be returned and we just gotta stop giving because honesty it isn't worth it.

Solace- Spearmint

To talk to
someone who has been through
what I am going through
to realise that I'm not alone
or strange
we both knew
that it would end at some point
it just so happens that it's now
to realise that I am alone
seems strange
I feel hollow
hollow and bruised inside
oh why is this so hard?
how come it hurts so much
in my stomach?
in this life
you don't fall in love very often
and so to have to say goodbye
seems stupid and sad
maybe one day
I will wake up
and you won't be the first thing
that I think about
I need solace
solace from music and friends
that say if I'm going to get over you
it means forgetting you
which I don't want to do
and they say
time will sweep these marks away
but I say
this past will stay preserved
frozen intact
and perfect
forever
suddenly, the songs that meant nothing to me
seem to have been written for me
it's like a soundtrack to my life
songs about falling in love
about being in love
about saying goodbye
songs about falling in love
about being in love
about saying goodbye
I knew that
I was for it right from the start
right from the first day we met
I knew I was going to get hurt
it just so happens that it's now

throw a dart L.A/ the wolf has run away

ahh I love love love music that makes me fell so invincible I love 8tracks so much but its so hard to find music that I wouldn't skip I type 'tom hansen' into the search bar and I hit this golden mix but when i search 'invincible' IM JUST NOT FEELING THE SONGS but I really do love the 'finn the human' mix I STAYED FOR THE WHOLE THING OK really cannot wait to finish this annoying exam then I can go back to my HP quest and back to writing and photog adventures

i dont wanna study anymore I JUST WANNA READ

teardrops on my guitar is playing on the radio its freaking 2008 again!!!

it is 1238 and i cant sleep so here are some pics

the twinsies playing with Photo Booth

my wedding photo

how i force ppl to become my friends 

HAPS 17 SHIHUI

My mum just bought me a whole bottle of pills that supposed to make me taller but its for girls aged 10-16 and Im alr 17 so I'm not sure if it'll work but I'm supposed to take two pills twice a day and its like some harry potter shinizzle and on one hand I'm excited to see if it works on the other I'm kinda used to my 146cm stature I don't know how to go about being any taller than that IT HAS BEEN EMBEDDED INTO MY PERSONALITY IT IS MY IDENTITY SO IM KINDA HOPING I WOULDN'T GROW MUCH TALLER ~*throwing caution to the wind, leaving my life into the hands of fate*~
stay tuned for more updates xx

things to look forward to in life

1) 1R's concert

2) The Killers' concert

3) Cambodia with the churchies

4) Hopefully Taiwan again

basically the only things keeping me alive

pros and cons of being kristie

a few days ago Ting posted a video of her making a simple nutella mug cake which just involved:
4 tablespoons of flour
3 tablespoons of milk
1/4 tablespoon of baking soda
and as much nutella you want
pop into the microwave for 1 min

so i decided to try it out since it looked really simple and i substituted nutella for peanut butter cuz i didn't have any nutella at home and after i microwaved it fir a min it still looked weird and uncooked so I increased the time to 1 and a half min and it still looked weird then I set it to 1 more min and omg it tasted like bad cookies omg it was so horrible i am completely not domestic at all I TRIED but I still mess up the simplest recipes really need to evaluate my lyf

day in brief

1) spent half the day at kkh and it was filled with kids and i thought united square was bad. I have this love/hate r/s with kids like sometimes they are so adorable i just wanna kiss them and pinch their little cheekies and snuggle them but sometimes i really wanna throw them off high places and kick them and i am terrible but these are my true feelings. pls do not cry or scream or make loud annoying noises i shouted 'shut up' at a toddler today i feel really bad now BUT NO REMORSE seriously control your kid!!!!!!!! I cannot cannot cannot imagine myself as a parent like how am I supposed to be responsible for someone's life when I can't even find my way out of the toilet at kkh????? (i was alone and there were alot of corridors it was very confusing) and I will prolly treat my kid like a pet like a little puppy and hold them on a leash i cannot imagine what sort of horrible parent i will be, son/daughter, if you are reading this in the future, this is my apology. but i promise i will do my bestest. Saw a few kids wearing the patient outfit and some had bandages and needles poking into their arms and I felt so sad for them they're so tiny they shouldn't be allowed to go through this pain

2) made a mixtape for sh (it was really just a CD la but im tryna be cool) and I wish I was good at doodling then I could prolly do cool album art for her but no I suck. I named the mix tape 'Songs About Jane (A Little Summer, A Little Damper)' as you can see I love long album titles 'Songs About Jane' cuz I added the whole album in and summer/damper cuz most of the other songs were sad songs but they sound happy?? so the end result is actually pretty optimistic. Shall make one for Toose since her bday is coming up anyway

3) I GOT A JOB AT AN ICE CREAM PARLOUR I AM SO EXCITEDDDDDD

4) some ppl cant take a hint.

5) SO SICK OF MEDSOC

6) need to go gym tmr i am kinda craving the empowerment i feel after a successful session

7) its so ridiculous of me to have subconscious thoughts about things that will never happen throughout the day and yet I keep doing it maybe cuz I keep forgetting that its not possible aye

Final update

I swear I was freaking clenching my toes throughout the scan and the doc kept applying pressure to my bladder I WAS SO CLOSE TO PEEING THE ONLY THING THAT KEPT ME FROM SPILLING WAS MY DIGNITY but honestly I have none And after like 500 years she was done torturing me I fled to the ladies barely wearing my shoes AND BOTH CUBICLES WERE OCCUPIED AHH I think I had enough excitement for the day what a thrill xx 

UPDATE

just went to the ladies to retie my hair and when I left MY BLADDER LITERALLY FEELS LIKE IT'S GON BURST ANY MINUTE NOW SERIOUSLY I CAN'T EVEN WALK PROPERLY I AM WRITHING IN A FETAL POSITION DON'T POKE ME OK I WILL PEE 

life In the waiting room

am currently awaiting my turn to do an ultrasound (I am not preggers) anyway I'm supposed to go in with a full bladder and I can't pee and I have to drink lotsa water and I alr downed 600ml and I FEEL LIKE PUKING seriously one more gulp and I will Merlion all over the floor and I can't pee but I kinda feel like peeing AHH PAINFUL THIS IS SO PAINFUL WHAT IF I PEE CUZ I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE this sucks I can't decide if I should drink more but I'll prolly pee and that's not ideal ~*punches wall*~

Maybe not now or 3 years from now but one day and hopefully I am on my way

i swear my dreams are getting way creepy

I guess sometimes when I'm going home alone on public transport this sort of loneliness sinks in and I wish it never happened but at the same time I feel an odd sense of liberation. It fuels my wandering- what if I did this overseas (meaning that I would leave sg and live elsewhere by myself)? It's a strange kind of triumph that I cannot word. And I still feel cracks, empty spaces lacking what I initially felt. This is taking a little longer than I expected though but still I try my bestest everyday 

heart iz gon' expLODEEE

First started listening to OneRepublic when I was 12 and at that time 'Apologise' was a massive radio dominating mega hit and I didn't think much of it I honestly could not figure out which one was Timberland or OneRepublic since artists have fancy stage names and I actually thought 1R was the guy who went 'eh eh' in the song HAHAHAH but soon 'Stop and Stare' came out AND EVER SINCE THEN I WAS HOOKED OH MY GAWD I was this maniac okaye like I got the Waking Up album and I played it for months in late Sec1/ early Sec 2 cuz it was the only good thing I felt I was entitled to (back then I was kinda messy with a thing called 'life') and they are my first fav band in the whole wide world. (my fav band in the whole universe is cold freaking play of course, which I got into in Sec 2 so there's a difference) and today my dad GOT ME TICKETS OH MY GAWD I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT IN 2 MONTHS 22 DAYS TIME I WOULD FINALLY SEE RYAN TEDDER, MY HERO IN PERSON I REALLY CANNOT FATHOM I AM LITERALLY COUNTING DOWN THE SECONDS GOD I LOVE THEM SO MUCH like how coldplay makes me feel warm and safe 1R reminds me that I have dreams waiting to be fulfilled and they make me feel so so so so invincible I honestly cannot put to words how much they mean to me I WILL GET THE CASH AND SEE 1R AHHHH I CANNOT WAIT MY WHOLE LIFE HAS LED UP TO THIS MOMENT
going with david btw AHHHHHHHHHHH

operation: band aid

Will you believe it? 2 of my favourite bands in the entire Universe is coming down to SG THIS YEAR EEEK all the past years of complaining my soul out AN DNOW I FINALLY GET WHAT I WANT THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD HALLELUJAH HAHAHA its too much awesome, my feeble heart cannot take this immense joy WHEEEEEEEE SPINS AROUND CARTWHEELS FLOWERS UNICORN SYAYYAYAYAYA Y A Y having said that, its time to commence my mission: operation band aid (see what i did there??? #punny #lolsorry)

THE KILLERS- 148
ONEREPUBLIC- 108 (before 10 Aug)
TOTAL- 256
KRISTIE- 85
BALANCE- 171

plus that does not include the tees im gonna make for the concerts, and contacts, so my specs wont get smashed haha. As you can see, im almost at 108! (joy) and my masterplan is to get a job, (no matter how bad it is) AND HAVE MORE CASH FOR MY BABIES I WILL DO THIS i need this to keep my mind off stuff, and also to finally feel the shivers and pcd after the concert. (its been too long after paramore) AND RR KEEPS THINKING I WENT TO MEET FOB HAHAHA OMG i keep insisting I've haven't but she doesn't believe me
and i really really really hope this will work out, i am literally banking every single thing on my plan i would be devastated, no beyond devastated of it didn't work out. pls pls pls pls let me what i want this time, and hope isn't enough, i'm actually making sacrifices and pls pls pls i really need this

i keep thinking about that time at sea aquarium when this whole school of fish were attacking a decapitated fish's head and it messed me up mann i cannot stop thinking about it. its freaking messed up mann

outta my league

visited ahma at the hospital today and it messed me up a little for just awhile. idk mann, maybe cuz it was a private hospital the lingering aftertaste of death wasn't as blatant??? but then again im not complaining. the ward was pretty good actually, idk its like a cross between a dorm/hotel/airplane. hopefully she gets discharged tmr she looks so bored there poor thing but im glad shes okaye ahgong so cute he came to visit her with a whole bag of biscuits and agar agar 

and lemme tell you the story of how i destroyed the most painful pimple i ever experienced in my life BLOODY HELL ITS SMALL BUT IT BLOODY HURTS I TELL YOU MY NOSE IS FREAKING SWELLING NOW EVEN AFTER I POPPED IT I LITERALLY SPENT LIKE 30MINS TRYNA POP IT AND THAT LIL BITCH STAYED THERE THE WHOLE TIME but i finally did and god it really hurts its still throbbing now and my nose is red hahaha i look like Rudolph THIS IS KARMA FOR MAKING FUN OF KY HAHA IM SORRY WE'RE EVEN NOW 

have you ever had so much admiration for someone, it feels like they are perfect to you? every single one of their bones are perfectly aligned, every eyelash in its rightful curvature? it feels so foreign and exciting at the same time i wonder if a few years back cold feet wasn't a reason, perhaps an alternative route could be played out and i really do wonder what it would feel like but i guess its smth i could never understand, your mind is basically shrouded in mystery and that blackhole aka time ruined pretty much everything and you are way out of my league. i could never ever measure up to you and maybe thats why i admire you so much. it feels like one day youre gonna be successful in the future and that you alr have your whole life planned before you and idk where i'll be by then but i'll prolly hear bout it and i have so many words, so many things to say but one thing remains the same, you are out of my league/ got my heartbeat racing/ if i die don't wake me/ cuz you are more than just a dream