how i bid 2013 farewell

day 1//
the flight to PP was pretty quick and the air was surprisingly cooling, like Taiwan?? nth much happened really, had an 8 hour bus ride to SR and there were so many cows along the streets, like eating or standing around, doing whatever things cows do and they were all so bony, i don't even think they translate to much beef. once we reached like the second rest stop for toilets, it kinda hit me that this is the situation in Cambodia like i am dealing with possible non-electrictiy sanitation and i got quite scared but just gotta suck it up like a bitch. there's a lot of sand everywhere and dogs too some of which resemble pigs and kangaroos and wolves, (their face structure, not their physical size) the town area was really fancy though, most of the 5 star (i am assuming they are) have similar architectural structures they kinda look like palaces lol BUT V HAPPENING (nth compared to phuket tho)
had dinner at Aunt Sopheap's place and its this cemented house with a front porch right at the side of the street and she has 4 dogs hahaha and each meal comes with 3 pots, rice, soup and veg (sounds v healthy and clean but for some reason after i came back and weighed myself, i gained 1.3kg from phuket and cambodia wat)
the toilet in BBLC was ok la not bad just that the cubicles were constantly flooded and there were a lot of crickets and flies and six-legged friends (think i saw a spider once) and it was super cold PLUS THE TEMP welcome to the arctic xx

day 2//
i think day 2 was the day that impacted me most. when we first started out i suddenly felt incredibly shy cuz i didn't know how to gauge how wide the language barrier was but when i saw El talking to some girls i just felt like i needed to man up so i went to talk to the girls and one of the girls i met (her name is Marry) she's the sweetest most friendly girl I've met (this might be a hyperbole but) she's 13 and in one of my classes for the younger kids, at first it was kinda awkward and unnatural since we had a translator and while they were doing the craft it was just us staring at them V TENSE LOL but we exchange khmer vocab (kla is tiger) after the lesson the kids left for school and before Marry said bye she gave me one of her rings that she was wearing on her finger LIKE WHAT I DO NOT DESERVE THIS I WAS SO TOUCHED LIKE ALL I DID WAS TALK TO YOU AND THIS HAPPENS i am so undeserving mann. btw i asked those girls to guess my age and they said i looked 20?!?!?!?!?! what the frick in that moment i understood why there are more advantages to looking younger than looking older thank you God for my flawless face
we had another class at the Training Shed and some more in the evening and i was talking to one of the older kids (she's 16) and

cambodia vs sg

'do you like studying?'

'yes'

'what time does school start for you?'

'public school starts at 7, and private school at 6.'

'what time do you wake up?'

'4'

the 'yes' does not justify her excitement when talking about how much she loved studying ok i told her i 'do not like studying' and afterwards while i thought about it i realised that maybe i shouldn't have said that and i begun to see how unappreciative i was like education is the ticket outta poverty for these kids (tbh they aren't exactly the poorest) ok rephrase, education is prolly their only way to seeing the rest of the world for them and here i am loathing knowledge and school when i am definitely 1000x more privilege than them. and then i also wondered why ppl hate studying so much, isn't it wonderful to learn? maybe it isn't just me (being an ingrate) maybe just maybe the education system in sg is flawed but pls disclaimer i am not trying to blame the gov or anyth or distract anyone from my own ungratefulness i am just wondering 

met this other girl (she told me to call her Rabit) and boy her english is tip top ok she asked me to play soccer with the other kids and i met this boy he's 11 called Sawthar (or smth liddat the spelling is inaccurate) and he rmbs me omg like the next day or rather 2 days later we met at church AND HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS PARTNER FOR THIS REALLY COMPLICATED BALL GAME AHH i hate kids mann they are so disgusting and annoying but these cambodian kids wow they don't judge they just wanna be friends i felt so welcomed 

and yes that morning i played monkey with some of the kids and when i was monkey this ball flew into my face and i ended up bleeding from the lips hahaah loser you see these kinda things happen to me when i do sports 

and the boys are v cheeky one of them said 'i have a baby' in other words he called me pregnant in khmer WHAT THE I AM NOT EVEN THAT ROUND IN FACT I AM QUITE SLIM IF I DARESAY MYSELF offended tsk tsk hahah but aw mann i really wonder whats gonna happen to them mann. where will they be in 10 years time? 

day 3//

sat atop a truck for the first time in my life while we were travelling to visit this really ulu village and give food packages it was like those kinda safari rides in the zoo except that this was real. the villages were really like those kinda kampongs like the kind of huts you can imagine and we went to this particular house and they had this ginormous pig hahahha damn scary and a turk and piglets and dogs and chicks. i carried this little baby pup and there was this baby girl who kept tryna take it from me and she was squishing its neck and the pup was yelping :'''''''( and this boy carried the pup for me to hold SO SWEET AHHHH sg needs more cambodian kids than the brats we have here mann these kids from the village are really those kind that haven't really been in contact with any gadgets or anyth and they kept giggling when i showed them the front cam on my phone ahhh babies :'( i honestly don't know where they will be in the future 

went to the Khmer Christian Church to play hockey with the locals (and i obviously did not take part in any physical activity pertaining to my accident the day before) (no really i was just lazy) 

day 4//

went to the KCC in the morning for service and played with the kids after and Sawthar told me to be his partner :))))))))))))))) he then dumped me to be solo LOL and i partnered up with Phanna (?) but i sucked so bad you see you cannot give me a ball or any sports equipment that involves me holding it thats why i don't mind being in rock climbing cuz the only things you hold in your hand is your own life and you don't wanna mess that up. 

day 5//

moved to a hotel WAH ITS PARADISE I TELL YOU went to angkor wat at first i was kinda bored but the Bayon Temple was frickin cool ok i felt i was transported into a Miyazaki film it felt v mystical and there were so many rocks to climb it was definitely hotter in the town area compared to the countryside what more can i say about angkor wat? THERE ARE PLENTY ROCKS HAHA i didn't know that ppl actually live inside went to the night market and ate at some pizza place aye the whole area felt v westernised la result of globalisation the markets felt like phuket too except there were more stuff to buy went for a foot massage and we played 'guess my age' and when i said i was 17 the lady said that the dude massaging my feet was 18 HAHAH WHAT SO PAISEH OMG but after experiencing a foot massage i can never be happy again like that was honestly the best feeling in the world there is nth that can top that 

day 6//

went to the old market and then SR airport and i got another massage (which was obviously nth compared to the foot massage) am back in sg now AND I KEEP THINKING ITS STILL DEC 

wow i think i definitely learnt a lot through this trip, this entire would is so huge and the fact that the kids will prolly never see the other side of the world makes me kinda sad but they are so genuine i feel envious of them. like this kinda hospitality and community i can never experience in sg i guess in some ways they are richer than i am 2013 sucked but then again it was pretty good seeing 2 of my fave bands live and going on so many adventures i think i grew up a lot this year. 2014 alr seems scary but i hope its gon be hella rad and i shall have only one main resolution this year which i cannot  fail no matter what (so as to avoid unnecessary disappointment) which is to grow my hair really long, like past the boob till like my waist or a similar length LIKE IF I SCREW THAT UP I REALY AM HOPELESS HAHA happy 2014 guys have a good one xx