Pros and cons of being kristie pt 5

Another one of my greatest flaws would be my tendency to attribute everything that happens to me to the Universe which I guess it's not a good thing but I cannot see anyth bad about it maybe it's a flimsy excuse on my part but I am proactive when I want smth so much I usually go after it so no I do not blame the Universe for my bad decisions but all these occurrences I am currently facing, I'd like to think that it's the work of the Universe. It is 12:13am and I'm lying on my bed listening to Boyfriend by Best Coast and for some reason I feel a strange sense of invincibility and a tinge of frustration (this song is resonating with me) and I'm just reciting the lyrics and thinking and attributing my situation to the Universe and I wonder if there's a purpose to everything that's happening to me and I am realizing that I am so deluded and maybe that's the reason why I'm feeling all sorts of *emotions* without anyth actually happening and maybe I'm just lonely too but there's some sort of comfort being lonely and I've played the song 6 times alr and again in some strange manner this song is making me smile and idk why this is very strange and yet I can't help but smile