sea of love

all my life, even when i was genuinely happy there's always this constant gnawing of wanting to be someplace else, it doesn't matter where but as long as it's somewhere else and it beats me why the need to be elsewhere when right here right now, i'm feeling all sorts of joy and i question my ability, why i always turn to escapism, even from good things. rmb a quote from David Levithan 'When I am with you, there is nowhere else I'd rather be. And I am a person who always wants to be somewhere else.' I always want to be somewhere else.



am feeling kinda blue listening to Sea of Love- Cat Power, (prefer the Phil Phillip version tho) but i can only blame myself aye but then again i'm quite proud of myself, this is the first time i am shamelessly going after smth so fervently HAHA ah well guess its not the right time its ok it was a good distraction while it lasted. i know i've said this many times but as the days go by it just further exemplifies the fact that my life is pretty much a sitcom and i am not even exaggerating its a joke sometimes i can't even believe that this is my life LOL but i guess i'd rather have an interesting life than a lame one i would say what happened BUT TOO PUBLIC HAHA gotta be 'mindful of what i post' anyway i am done with year 1 of poly bitchezzzzz!!! that was fast time always pasts so quickly and i bet sooner or later some sitcom worthy shit is gonna happen again lol stay tuned for more keeping up with kristie xx