The weeks are passing so quickly and so slowly at the same time. I can't believe it's been a month since LRR's bday. Quick because I cannot rmb anyth that happened in the past week and slow because LRR's bday felt like ages ago. Anyway

Sat: went to legoland and lol i have a lot of things to talk about HAHA I can't believe I actually feel sad about it being over but i am super tired right now the exhaustion is setting in i will try my best my brain are churning thoughts that are very incoherent

Legoland is pretty boring if you are above the age of 10 haha everyth there is for kids and kids above 120cm can take all of the rides and so that was what kinda spurred me on to sit on my very first rollercoaster LOL actually i took the one at USS before but that one was kinda small so idk if that would count as my first time??? but back to the rollercoaster, i told myself 2 things: 1) look at that kid he looks 10 and he is sitting at the front row you are 18 what excuse do u have and then i just go ahead because how bad would it reflect on me if i was a pussy lol 2) i have this new outlook on lyf aka what would finn/harry/eren do. finn as in finn from adtime, harry from harry potter and eren from snk and its been working so far when i lie to myself 'wow this is an adventure dont be afraid its gonna be so thrilling' and im actualy quite great at convincing myself and it works AND THIS MENTALITY IS HELPING ME THROUGH SO MUCH thank u fictional characters

the staff there were so friendly and sweet and there was this *travelling troupe* of musicians who sang at every eatery (lol eatery sounds so low class but sorry la i cannot think properly should not have procrastinated this post) and they kept singing let it go made me happy cuz they were spectacular and sad because there are SO MANY other songs u can sing!!! and they kept repeating it ahh

also this kid thought i was in pri school hahahaah frick u im honestly too tired to type full story out so u get my half-hearted attempt maybe i'll edit this tmr but if u stalk me on twitter the full story condensed to 140 characters is there

Sun: followed clare to cover her event and sengkang ppl feel extremely different from bishan ppl amirite the whole atmosphere is different in a way i find hard to put into words there were a bunch of pri school kids beatboxing and rapping and they were not bad leh and i dont get it these 12 year olds were behaving like american kids and this chinese dude kept throwing the n word loosely i was so shocked like u look 8 but u act 14????? (lol will continue more tmr)

went to sis's new condo and apparently mr singh is he neighbor HAHAHAAH omg so happy to spend the afternoon and evening with lrr and sis what would i do w/o them mann










sigh i want to stab the lump of useless muscle in the middle of my chest. mass of nerve and and sinew. i hate life