finding myself in a strange peculiar place, i spend half my life displaced, like i am neither here nor there, strung between two entities, like a tightrope only looser, and perhaps not even a rope, maybe just a thread.

anyway, A's are finally over and ive managed to meet most of the people i have been missing, (still left with lrr, kae, pj, nao and yeheng, toose, david.) nice to feel 16 and dumb again, except that now i am 18, i am (hopefully) wiser, we are a little more courageous, a little more fearless. it takes sometime getting used to, when they talk JC, A's and well there really is little to bridge the gap- all i can do is to bask in their company, i have missed you guys (kok, kenneth, sh) one day our white christmas will happen!!! for now, we content ourselves with fake snow, aircon and michael buble.

sweaty lobsters: the first time meeting after A's was also the last time we met before gordy went on his long-term vaycay in Tekong. tbh i have always expected this day to come, when I was 12, 14, and 16. and here we are, 18 and lost 18 and learning, 18 and still swaggy. it almost feels surreal to be going through and ~*experiencing*~ so much tgt. thankful to grow through life with you both. kinda miss gordy alr, wonder how he is doing and what he is doing, really strange to have him snatched away by law (again) and talking to him minimally. but i'd take whatever i can get. cant wait to see him christmas, think it'll be the best gift ever.